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“I’m sorry,” I say, looking her right in the eye. “I should have given this marriage a chance from the start. I shouldn’t have fought against it.” I get down on my knees in front of her, sliding in between her thighs and lifting her chin with my thumb and forefinger. “I should have let you in.”

“You thought I was a nerdy virgin.”

“I thought you were a good girl, one who deserved better than what I had to offer. I couldn’t picture you sitting in the pole room, letting Angel watch us.” I clear my throat. “I didn’t want to give up anything about my life. I thought your sister would be easier because I knew I wouldn’t care about her. She seemed the type to fuck around. She would have had her fun and not cared. She didn’t save herself. She had been with men before.”

“You hurt my feelings,” she whispers, and my throat works as I swallow down the regret.

“I’m sorry I was an asshole. You’re the best thing that ever happened to me, Elena.”

Anger flashes in her eyes. “You’re only saying that now because of the baby. Don’t worry, Suit, I won’t take the baby from you. We can work out a co-parenting plan.”

I laugh without humor. “There will be no fucking parenting plan, Elena. You’re mine.” I put my other hand on her stomach. “This child is ours. And we’re going to make this work. I’m going to prove to you that I can be the man you need.”

She takes a deep breath. “I don’t believe you.”

“I can prove it to you. I claimed you at church before I knew about the pregnancy. I told all of the men I’m making you my old lady, and that this marriage between us was going to be real. You can ask any of them.”

My eyes scan hers, silently pleading for her to believe me. “Please forgive me, princess. Give me one more chance. It’s the only one I’ll ever need.”

ELENA

Nothing would feel better than melting into his body and starting fresh, but there are still so many questions between us.

“What about Jade?”

His brow furrows. “I haven’t seen her in years since she cheated on me. I was surprised to see her. I don’t want anything to do with her, and I told her as much. She won’t be back here. She’s not an issue, I promise. No other woman is.”

“What did she want?”

“She had heard I got married and wanted to see if she still had any power over me,” he explains, running the pad of his thumb along my jawline. “She’s manipulative, and I want nothing to do with her.”

“And at my family dinner you just let my sister touch your hand and…”

“Baby, Prez told me to let them talk. To see what information I could get out of them. I stayed silent and did just that, let them keep talking. You think I didn’t want to throw you over my shoulder and carry you out of there the second they started making digs at you? I already knew you wouldn’t be going back there. Your family is full of fucking vultures, and they don’t deserve to breathe the same air as you. I needed to find out why your father suddenly wanted to swap you with Katerina.”

“It’s because the Pakhan didn’t know about the swap, and Alexei had asked for me. My father was trying to save face,” I say. “You should have told me what you wanted to do, Suit. Instead, you left me in the dark and made me feel alone even though my own husband was right there.”

“I’m sorry, I never meant to make you feel that way. And it won’t happen again.”

“You’re playing strategic games without letting me know where your head is at. You have been so closed off to me, Suit. You didn’t even want to touch me again after that night. You’d rather be in the pole room with the club girls than with your own wife.”

“I wanted you more than anything,” he rasps, burying his face into my neck. “I never touched another woman, Elena. Since the day I married you, I took those vows seriously. I was just scared of falling for you, of being vulnerable. I thought love was a liability. I was terrified to feel something for another woman. But I’ve fallen in love with you anyway, and I don’t feel vulnerable. I feel strong and proud. And I’ve wanted to fuck you again from the moment my cock slipped out of your cunt the last time.”

He didn’t touch any of the club girls? I definitely thought he had, even if he was just getting head from them. Is that why they keep sneering at me when I’m around? They even made it sound like he had been with them. The fact that he claimed me before he knew about the baby does mean something to me. He must have realized there are feelings involved. He said he had fallen for me. It took him longer to catch up because, looking back, I fell for him the moment I saw him.

“Suit,” I moan when his lips trail down my neck. “I don’t want you to say all of this and then just change your mind. You really hurt me.” I move away from him, unable to think with his mouth on me. It’s a lot of information to process.

“I know.” He sighs, his hands resting on my hips. “I’ve messed up everything. Please, let me apologize properly.”

I don’t know what he means until he undoes the button on my jeans, and I find myself lifting my hips so he can slide the denim down my thighs. He pulls me to the edge of the bed and glances at me. “Can I taste you, princess?”

“This isn’t going to change anything.”

“I know, just let me eat your pussy. I know that you’re going back to Alexei’s tonight.” He doesn’t look like he likes the idea at all. “I’m giving you tonight to think about everything, but tomorrow I’m coming to claim what’s mine. And right now, I’m going to let this hot little pussy know who it belongs to.” He swipes his tongue over me, making a deep humming noise. When the tip of his tongue touches my clit, my hips lift off the bed, and my head falls back.

Fuck.

I’ve wanted this for so long, since the last time he touched me, but he made me wait. He can have all the excuses and reasons in the world for why he did what he did, but it doesn’t change how he made me feel.