I pull the visor down and stare at myself in the mirror.
You are beautiful.
You are smart.
You are loved.
You are going to do amazing things.
Or at least have amazing sex, which is equally as important. I mean, mediocre sex is awful. Truly.
You deserve to have some fun, although fun can often lead to trouble, but we’re not going to talk about that.
Now, get out of the car and go talk to him.
That is so much easier said than done.
I have no idea how he’s going to feel, but there’s only one way to find out.
I exit the car, making my way inside and…it’s dark and he’s not here.
Well, that’s…anticlimactic.
I send a text to Meredith.
So, I planned to come home and, you know, do it. Or him. Or whatever we’re saying, but he’s not here and now I feel stupid.
Meredith
Get naked and go wait in his bed.
Okay, now that is really dumb and no thanks.
Meredith
Jake agrees.
Well, I’m definitely not going to take his advice since he also said we should get naked and swim in the campus fountain which…we learned was also dumb.
The things we do when we’re drunk.
Meredith
This is true. Okay, then maybe this is a sign. You should go to bed—alone and not do it.
That’s probably the most likely scenario. Okay. Love you! I’ll do my best to see you again before I leave.
Meredith
Love you most.
I sigh and walk to turn the light so I can go to bed. But as I do, there are headlights in the window, pulling up beside my car.
I should go. I should run up the damn stairs, get in my room and fake sleep.
I don’t.
I stand here, like a statue as I hear the car door close, then the front door open.
