I rear back a little.
Me
Sorry if my fantasy's so pedestrian.
Alex
There's zero wrong with it. It's hot. The idea of being the one everyone wants. The taboo for a girl to have all the cock all at once. But I mean something deep, like a kink if you have them. For instance, being watched is a kink.
Me
I'm new at all this.
Alex
Virgins fantasize.
Me
There's the fantasy of being forced.
Alex
So you can do everything you want to do but don't know how to ask for it without repercussions. Do you have rape fantasies?
Me
No.
Alex
It's control. Forced through control. You know the person, and you give them everything. Do you like me watching or the idea of being told what to do by text?
A shiver races through me.
Me
Yes.
Alex
My dirtiest fantasy is finding a girl who will go down that rabbit hole of control, denial, and sense deprivation.
Me
What does that mean?
Alex
The extreme is cutting you off from everything but touch, movement included. Me telling you to, say, imagine your boss prepping you for me, and then me telling you how I will fuck you while you touch yourself is the softer end. We could do blindfold and touch. We could do blindfold, voice, and touch.
Oh, does this sound delicious and dirty and so wrong it feels right, like a missing piece is slotting into place.
Me
What do you mean we?
Alex
