Going out on a limb here, but I think you should explore these fantasies if they turn you on, but with someone you trust, someone you have done some things with. Someone I think you're attracted to.
Me.
I want to push your limits. Test mine. Indulge in you.
A cold grip surrounds me for a moment. But then I gather my thoughts.
I want this. I have already done things with him. Still...
Me
Isn't this me inviting you, a stranger, to assault me?
Alex
Rape fantasy can be part of it, but this is control and giving up yours to me. Which we have dabbled in. It's up to you, of course, Lola. And we'd have a safe word—Blue Banana.
Me
I hate bananas.
Alex
Weirdo. But that works, especially with the word blue. You will remember it.
Me
What if I'm not sure in the middle of something?
Alex
Banana. Blue Banana will mean stop. Just banana will mean slow down.
I try to steady my breathing and take another big swallow of the wine.
Alex
It'd be in-person non-con roleplaying or just control roleplaying.
He did say non-con and control go hand in hand. And we have sort of played around over the phone, him watching...
Me
Yes.
The moment I hit send, it suddenly gets hard to breathe.
I want to explore this newly unearthed dark side of me, but...oh, Lord.
Me
Maybe.
Alex
You don't need to decide right now. I laid a lot on you, Lola.
Don't make up your mind now. Sleep on it. Remember, there'd be a safe word, and you will always have a way out. Blue Banana will always mean Blue Banana, got that?
