I should say it is creepy and invasive.
Alex
Definitely.
Me
But I'm not going to.
Alex
That's not you saying it's not creepy and invasive.
Me
I know. It's definitely invasive.
Alex
But?
I suck in a breath.
Me
But I'm not saying I don't like it.
He is quiet a long time, to the point I refill my glass, suddenly filled with restless energy. But when I sit again and go to pick up the salad, my phone pings and lights up again.
Alex
Sorry. I really am working. Taking a small break, though. So...you like it?
Me
I think so.
Shit. I take the plunge.
Me
Yes.
Are you looking at me now?
Alex
Where's the fun in that, Lola? Letting you know what I'm doing? Tell me what your dirtiest fantasy is.
I freeze. Not because I don't have them, but because his watching might be the dirtiest because of the possibilities. But that is new. Then there is the shower fantasy.
Me
Sometimes, I like the fantasy of a gangbang.
Alex
Bullshit fantasy. As in, everyone probably has that in their cache. Straight guys either like the idea of pounding one girl, but I think it's more about being fucked by a group of girls. The straight girl's fantasy will be of the latter reversed.
