“I’m sorry,” I said as I realized what I’d done. For whatever reason, that simple act of his dick touching my hole had made me forget where I was.
And who I was with.
“It’s okay, you didn’t do anything wrong.”
“I don’t want to stop,” I blurted, because I could see from the way he was looking at me that he was going to suggest just that. “I just got a little lost.”
“I know, baby, and it’s okay. We can keep going if that’s what you really want.”
I nodded, because that was exactly what I wanted. I tried topush past the embarrassment, but it wasn’t easy. But Phoenix seemed to be in no rush as he began kissing me again. Whenever he shifted his hips, I tensed up, but as soon as he reminded me to open my eyes, I relaxed. At one point, he levered off me and said, “Are you sure? You can still stop me whenever you want, but I just want to make sure you’re still with me, one hundred percent.”
“I am,” I said. Yes, I was scared. I wouldn’t lie to myself about that. But I was also eager to take this final step with him.
Phoenix climbed off me long enough to get a condom and a bottle of lube from his nightstand drawer.
“Move up here,” he said as he motioned to the head of the bed. He sweetly made sure my head was comfortably supported by a couple of pillows before he settled back down on top of me. As before, he kissed me to get my body back to the edge and then kept me there by grinding our dicks together. I tensed when he got the bottle of lube open and put some on his fingers, but I kept it together as his hand moved between my legs. If he hadn’t been kissing me, it would have been harder for me to not react when his finger began probing my entrance. But with every stroke of his lush tongue over mine, my fear over what was coming began to diminish. It stung when his finger pushed into me just a little bit, but instead of ignoring my discomfort, he settled his arm around my shoulders and waited for my body to adjust. And the entire time, he nuzzled my ear and kept telling me he loved me and how beautiful I was.
When my body would relax around the digit, he’d slide more of it into me. He never did anything that caught me off guard and he constantly reminded me to look at him. The intensity in his eyes was overwhelming. I didn’t think it possible, but I fell in love with him even more when I saw the effort he was making to make this good for me. While I’d had the benefit of having had one orgasm already, he hadn’t.
By the time his finger was completely inside of me, my need had grown again and I was eager to get his mouth back on mine. When I tugged Phoenix down, he happily covered my mouth with his and kissed me hungrily. He captured my moan as his finger pulled out of me before carefully easing back in. It still stung, but there wassomething else too. Something more than just the sparks of electricity licking at my balls.
It was a hunger of some kind.
But not like what I’d been experiencing since the moment he’d kissed me earlier tonight. No, it was different. A need. I was too empty. Even with his finger inside of me, it didn’t feel like enough. And while I knew his cock would cause me at least some pain – there was just no avoiding it – I still wanted it.
“More,” I murmured, hoping he’d know what I wanted.
Because I certainly couldn’t form the words.
The finger inside of me began to pump in and out with more frequency. The burn faded and something else took over. I was just starting to enjoy the sensation and began bucking my hips up to meet Phoenix’s finger when he twisted inside of me and hit something that sent shockwaves through my entire body. It had to be akin to being struck by lightning. The difference in sensation was that intense.
“Oh, God, please!” I wailed, even though I had no clue what I was asking for. But whatever it was, Phoenix gave it to me again.
And again.
Over and over until all I could do was cling to him, eyes closed, tears trailing down my cheeks.
Phoenix kissed me and whispered, “Levi,” and then stopped whatever it was he was doing to me. I wanted to beg him to continue, but I forced my eyes open when he ordered me to.
“I can make you come just like this,” Phoenix said as he pressed against that spot again.
I let out another shout. My body felt strung so tight, I was sure it would cleave in two when my orgasm hit me.
If it hit me.
Because at this rate, I had no clue what was happening.
I was about to tell him yes, anything to make him finish what he’d started, but then I felt his dick pressed against me and I remembered what I really wanted out of all this.
Not just to experience pleasure.
But to experience it with him.
“No…no, I want you inside me,” I managed to say, though I was having trouble catching my breath.
Phoenix nodded and then kissed me. “I’m going to use a second finger to open you up a little more, okay?”
I nodded.
