There was little pain and only a slight burn as he pushed another finger into me. He fucked me a few times with both digits, then he hit that magic spot again and I arched my back. I felt Phoenix shift away from me, but he somehow managed to keep his fingers inside of me, gently tickling that place that had me hovering right on the edge of perfection. I’d finally come to realize it was my prostate.
Phoenix continued to massage my inner walls with his fingers even as he tore the condom package open. I felt bereft when he finally pulled his fingers free of me so he could work the condom and some lube over his length. As on edge as my nerves felt as they waited for the imminent orgasm, I was starting to feel tense again as I took in the size of Phoenix’s cock. He was definitely bigger than anyone I’d ever been with, but I reminded myself that even the guys in prison who’d had smaller cocks, had still made me feel only pain.
Because that was what they’d wanted me to feel.
I forced the memory away because it had no business here.
Phoenix settled between my legs, but didn’t shove into me. He just kissed me gently, sipping at my lips like I was a fine glass of wine or something.
“I want you to keep your eyes open,” he said. “I want you to see me, the man who loves you. Only me.”
It was almost an order and one I would gladly follow. Because I knew he was right. If I closed my eyes, my mind would play tricks on me.
“I promise,” I said.
It wasn’t a hardship to keep my eyes fastened on Phoenix’s. Because he was just so beautiful and perfect…I didn’t want to miss any of the expressions that flashed through his eyes as he positioned his cock at my entrance and began to push into me. Yeah, it hurt. I couldn’t pretend it didn’t. But the pain was a drop in the bucket compared to what I’d known in the past. And I still had the lingering pleasure from everything he’d already done to me to hang on to.
Once his crown breached me, he hung there, letting me adjust. The pain dissipated, leaving behind an intense burn.
“Good?” Phoenix asked.
I sucked in a breath and nodded. I had my hands on his biceps. The muscles rippling beneath my fingers were a constant reminder of how strong this man was, but how gentle he was being. He took his time working his length into me. He’d occasionally pull back a little, causing an intense tugging sensation that didn’t feel at all bad, before he rocked back into me. By the time he was fully seated inside of me, I felt stuffed full.
And I loved it.
The mix of pain, burning and pleasure had my whole body trying to adjust to the mix of sensations.
But the best part was the way Phoenix was wrapped around me.
Around me.
In me.
He was a part of me.
And I him.
I’d never felt more complete in my whole life. Everything was right in my world.
“So beautiful,” Phoenix whispered against my lips.
“I love you so much,” I said with a shake of my head, because I knew the words weren’t enough to convey what I was feeling. And I knew it wasn’t just the high that came along with the pleasure. It was more than that.
“I know, baby. I love you. And I promise you, we’re going to figure all this out and then we’ll be together. You’re mine, do you understand me?”
I nodded.
Iwashis.
No matter what any man did to me after this, I would always belong to Phoenix.
“Yours,” I said softly. He kissed me hard and then he began moving.
The result was powerful.
My dick, which had gone soft when Phoenix had begun his entry, sparked to life. My whole body lit up with need, excitement and anticipation. I wrapped my arms around Phoenix’s broad shoulders and my legs went around the backs of his. There was no space between us whatsoever, but I’d never felt freer.
I clung to him as he began to shuttle in and out of me with more speed and intensity.
