Theo- *You broke my trust. And you know what happens when you are bad! Saturday won’t be as much fun as I originally planned for us. And you better stop seeing this other guy. *
Theo-*I don’t share what is mine! *
Since when am I exclusively his? He has never claimed possession of me unless we were at Vixens. This is even more confusing now because I didn’t think that Theo cared about me as more than a contract. Also, how the fuck did he find out about Lucian. Fuck, Allie must have said something. Fucking bitch! I opened my KNKI app to message her and saw that she had already messaged me, asking me not to say anything to him. It's funny how she asked me not to spill, yet she ran right to him. She has always wanted him all to herself. Well lucky for her, I think I might end things with him on Saturday.
Cassie-*Good morning, Sir. The guy I have been hanging out with is Lucian. The one I told you about is my best friend of 15 years. I apologize for the misunderstanding and for not telling you he was back in town sooner; it won’t happen again. *
Theo-*Fine, he better not be anything more than a friend. You will still be punished on Saturday, but it won’t be as hard of a session as it would have been. Like I said, I do not share what is mine. Have a great rest of the day, little one. *
Theo-*Oh, and make sure to be at our usual room at 5:30 pm on Saturday. Wear that black dress; you know that I love it. *
My stomach feels sick. I usually enjoy his punishments. He is a caring but firm Dom, and that is what I need. I need someone to punish me, push me past my breaking points, fuck me into oblivion. I’ll take the punishment on Saturday, like a one-last-time going away ceremony. Then I can deal with the chaos that is the rest of my life. I whip my phone down onto the couch and head back to my room, my good mood now sour.
“Lucian, I’ll be done in 15,” I say as I pass the guest bathroom.
I grab my bag and start shoving shit in there for the day. Fuck Theo and his misconceptions, fuck Allie for backstabbing me, and right now, fuck Lucian for being so different now and clouding my brain. He has consumed my thoughts since I picked him up. I want to tell him, no I need to tell him, but I need to wait till after Saturday.
23. Lucian
Iwasn’t sure whether I was dreaming or not when I felt her featherlight touch running up my jaw and cheek. She was touching me so carefully to not wake me up, but I am an exceptionally light sleeper. I pretended I was still asleep, though, because I wanted to see what she would do. I could feel her heart racing as she leaned in to kiss me. It took everything in me not to wrap my arms around her and deepen the kiss. When she moaned, I couldn’t help it. I slightly shifted, and she felt it. She hesitated and broke the kiss. I felt so empty without her lips against mine. Now, I am even more confused. Should I tell her how my feelings have changed over the last few days? Do I risk ruining such a perfect friendship? All of my other relationships never lasted because something always felt off, like it was missing something. Could she be what was missing? I think about this for the next hour or so. I am running through all the reasons I should or shouldn’t tell her that I am falling for her when I hear her soft voice, barely above a whisper.
"It's beautiful. Isn't it?"
I look down at her laying on my chest. She is so beautiful. Her hazel eyes have flecks of gold around her pupils; she has a light dusting of freckles dotting her face. Her lips draw me in, though. Especially when she bites her lower lip. I’m too enamored by her to respond. If I do, I will definitely let the cat out of the bag. I want to tell her that she is one of the most beautiful women I have ever seen. I want to wrap my hand around the back of herneck and pull her down against me, kissing her until we both can’t breathe. But no, I just stare.
She seems to have had enough physical contact with me and goes to stand up, careful not to put weight on the bad shoulder. It doesn’t seem to be hurting too bad this morning; she isn’t wincing like yesterday.
"Do you want to get some breakfast? Then we can get the cleaning supplies. We could go to Ninas, " she asks.
I still can’t speak; I just nod as I get up and make my way to her guest bathroom. I need a minute to breathe to get my thoughts together. I hear her pass the bathroom as I sit on the bathtub's edge. I need to tell her, but when?
*Ding* *Ding* *Ding*
Who the hell is blowing up her phone? I hear her pass by the bathroom again. I quietly open the door and peer around the corner. She is looking at her phone furiously as she replies. Then she locks it and whips it into the cushions of the couch. I silently slip back into the bathroom and shut the door. I don’t want her to know I was spying on her.
“Lucian, I’ll be done in 15.” She says as she walks back to her bedroom and slams the door before I can even respond.
As soon as I am sure she isn’t coming right back out, I go back to the front room. I need to know who pissed her off so bad. Fuck! This Theo guy is a possessive dick head. I scroll through to see if he has always been this much of a dick. Nope, he actually seems like a decent guy up until today. So apparently, Allie backstabbed her and told Theo before Cassie could. Fucking bitch.
I also love how fast she was to make it a point I am “Just a friend” to her. I think we both can feel there is a bit more to this than just friendship, but whatever. I feel guilty snooping, but I need to make sure he is treating her well and taking care of her. If she tells me she wants to be with him, I will back down if heis. But, if he even shows the slightest mistreatment toward her, or she is only in it for the Dom/sub aspect, well, Theo can get the fuck out of my way. I would step up and replace him in a heartbeat.
I am curious about what is going on Saturday. Maybe I’ll have to do a little recon and see for myself what kind of man this Theo is. I lock the phone, quickly put it back where it was, and sit on the couch just as Cassie walks back into the room.
“I figure we can go grab a quick bite at Nina’s, hit up the store for cleaning shit, then make your place sparkling clean. You owe me dinner. My allergies are going to be horrible after this.” She giggles as she is pulling her hair into a high ponytail.
“Sounds good. I’m starving. We have to grab my car tonight, too.” I hope to God it turns over. If not, then I guess I’ll be working from home until it is fixed. Aight, let’s go.” I say as I head out toward her car, her close behind me.
Ninas is an insanely popular casual diner. Think of coney island but more homestyle meals. The amount of butter they cook with will kill you, but you will die a happy man. Happy and full. We grab a booth in the back, and for a Thursday morning, it is pretty busy. We sit quietly as I sip my coffee, and she sips her orange juice.
*Ding* *Ding*
She picks up her phone, her brows crease, her mouth pinching shut.
“Cass? Everything OK? Who is it?” I ask, touching the back of her hand. She jumps.
“Oh, just a friend... from school. There is a project due soon that I forgot about.” Lies, Lies, and more lies. This girl is too anal about schoolwork to ever forget about a project.
“You sure? You look pissed. Are you sure you are, OK?” I ask, grabbing her hand in mine. Please just open up. I’m begging her with my eyes.
