“You are, Daddy,” he responded immediately.
“So do you get to tell me when you should get your spankings?”
“No, Daddy. I’m sorry. It’s just...you talk about them all the time, and I want to know what it’s like to feel my ass burning for you.”
“Oh, you’re going to.” I chuckled, biting back a groan as I slicked up my shaft. “But it will be when I decide I’m ready, and not a moment before. Got it?”
“Yes, Daddy.”
I pressed the tip of my cock against his hole, stretching him but not fully entering him. He rocked back, trying to take more and earning himself another smack on his hip. “Try to take control and this is going to be over quick, but not in the way we both need.”
“I’m trying, Daddy. I promise I am, but it’s hard. I’ve been thinking about this since you told me to get tested. Even before that, really.” I loved seeing Tanner when he was this uninhibited. Whenever we talked on the phone, I got the impression he was trying to hold back from me. I couldn’t get on his case too much about that because I did the same to him. It was as if neither of us wanted to admit to the other how much we were hurting. “Please, don’t make me wait any longer.”
“How can I resist when you’re so sweet for me?” I covered his body and bent down to kiss him as I eased my way into his passage. It was an awkward position, and I could already feel my body protesting, but I couldn’tnotkiss him. His muscles clenched around me and he whimpered into my mouth. There were so many things I wanted to say to him. Being fully seated in him felt like coming home.Thiswas where I belonged; deep inside of Tanner, over him, protecting him, loving him.
Tanner laid perfectly still, allowing me to make love to him slowly and passionately. He wasn’t a passive lover, but a compliant one. His muscles rippled with the effort he was putting into not arching off the bed.
“So damn good for me,” I praised him. “I expected you to be greedier.”
“Oh, I’m definitely greedy,” he quipped. “But I don’t want to do the wrong thing and have you stop.”
The admission broke my heart. Yes, I wanted him obedient, but not to the point of panic. I stilled, pulling out long enough to flip him onto his back. I needed to see him, needed him to look into my eyes as I made love to him, so he’d know how happy he made me. I cupped his face in my hands. “Nothing could stop me now that I’m here. I love you, Tanner, and that includes when you’re an impatient little brat. Maybe especially then, because it gives me something to punish you for. You’re strong-willed, and that’s not something I ever want you to lose.”
“I love you, too, Daddy. So much.” His eyes turned glassy, and he sucked his bottom lip between his teeth.
“What is it?” I rocked my hips gently, not actively fucking him, but drawing out our connection. “Tell me, boy. You promised you’d let me know what was going on in that beautiful head of yours so I wouldn’t have to worry.”
“I keep waiting for you to wake up and realize this isn’t working for you,” he admitted. “You’re always trying to take care of me.”
“And that will never change,” I promised him. “You’re my boy, and it’s my privilege to be the one to make sure you have everything you want and need.”
“Even if I’m too scared to move in with you?” His head fell to the side, and I could practically feel him pulling away from me.
Ahhh, so that’s what this was about.
“Maybe especially because of that.” I withdrew before slamming into him again, harder this time. His back arched off the bead as I pounded into him, proving with my body what he wouldn’t believe in my words. “You’remine, Tanner. And until you realize I don’t mean you’re minefor now, butforever, I have to work that much harder to prove myself to you. I have to make sure you know every day how much you mean to me.”
“Even if it means flying cross-country to surprise me?”
“Yes, even then,” I confirmed. I’d known he’d been struggling, so I’d pushed up my plans by a few days. When I told Jack what was going on, he agreed that there was nothing for me to do in Annandale and promised he’d call if he needed me. What Tanner didn’t know yet was, I’d purchased a one-way ticket so there wasn’t a deadline for us this time. “You think you’re good at pretending you’re okay when you’re not, but I know you, Tanner. I know every single one of your tells and I know when you’re lying to me.”
“But you lied to me, too,” he shot back, a bit of that fire returning to his eyes. “I don’t like making you sad, and I know you are because I won’t be with you.”
“When the time is right, you will be.” Keeping on as we had been forever wasn’t sustainable, but I meant it when I told him I’d never pressure him before he was ready. When he moved into what I already thought of asour home, we’d both know he was there because he wanted to be. “Until then, I’m okay with working on airplanes as I go back and forth.”
“But the money,” he protested. I sealed my mouth over his again, unwilling to have this argument.
“Is well spent if it means being inside of you.”
Somehow, nothing ever went according to plan when Tanner and I were together, but maybe that was how we were supposed to be. I gave him the security he craved, and he forced me to let go of itineraries and carefully choreographed scenes. The only thing that truly mattered was that we were finally together again.
We held each other tightly as I thrust in and out of his body, his cock trapped between our bodies, leaking a steady stream of precum. Time dragged on, in the best possible way, as I made love to my boy the way I’d dreamed about for so long. Later, there would be time for hard and kinky fucking, but first, we needed this. The connection, the reminder of who we were when pretenses and titles were stripped away.
“I love you, Tanner. Always,” I promised him as I felt my orgasm threatening to send me hurdling over the edge. My pace became erratic as passion claimed me. I fisted my hands in his hair, holding him tightly so he couldn’t look anywhere other than into my eyes. “You’re mine, and I’m not fucking letting you go again.”
“Please, Daddy,” he cried out. I wasn’t sure what he was asking me for, but I’d give it to him. His release, my heart, everything that was mine was his. I spilled into him, and my brain short-circuited at the feeling of my cum filling his body. I pulled out slowly, my eyes fixated on his spasming hole, my release leaking out of him.
If I was a younger man, I would have been ready for round two as I watched Tanner reach between his legs and scoop up my release onto his fingers. His gaze never left mine as he lifted his fingers to his mouth, sucking every bit of my cum clean.
