Ryan: No, but he got me a bunch for my toy box on Christmas. He likes me in them while I’m on the spankingbench.
April: What about a cockring?
I nervously rubbed my neck and held my hand on my stomach. I had been pretty sure that the girls knew I wasn’t fucking Russell, or rather, that Russell wasn’t fucking me. But just to be sure, I wanted to remind them, and maybe it was more for my benefit thantheirs.
Ryan: Remember, we’re notfucking.
April: Not yet, Ry-Guy.
My fingers rested on the keys of the keyboard as I decided if I should talk to them about the sex aspect. But as their conversation with birthday gift ideas kept rolling, the less confident that I felt aboutit.
Kim: A guy doesn’t have to have sex to get the use and enjoyment out of a cockring.
April: Yeah, you can pick out a nice leather one. Look, there’s a whole section just for cockrings.
Kim: Oh, I’ve got it! Get a cock ring for yourself, to give tohim.
I frowned as I re-read that back a fewtimes.
April: Perfect idea. Russell likes to play with you, and I bet he’d love to see you in a masculine cockring.
Kim: Ryan, there’s a whole page dedicated to metalrings.
It hadn’t been a bad idea after all. Russell did like lots of toys in my toy box. Plus, he’d see that I was serious about the toy box with this addition. Or at least, that I was giving the toy box a fairshot.
The girls helped me picked a silver cock ring that had ball bearings. One side was left open so you could see the ball bearings. This one was perfect because it looked masculine. As I was finishing the checkout process, the girls hit me up about the sex topic we had glossedover.
April: So, have you guys talked aboutsex?
Kim: There’s no pressure to haveit.
Ryan: I know there’s no pressure to have it. Sex doesn’t matter to me. I don’t need it. He knowsthat.
I realized that I sounded selfish. What if they’re thinking about poor Russell having to deal with me and not getting anysex?
Ryan: But I told Russell that if he needs or wants to have sex, he can. I told him that Iunderstood.
April: I doubt the man is going to go off and fuck someone else while you’re carrying his collartag.
My collar tag. I pulled my wallet out and retrieved my keychain and read the inscriptions, “You are stronger than you think,” and “You are mine. Love you always,Russell.”
Kim: I’m sure Russell would go slow with you. He knows not to rough youup.
Ryan: I don’t want gentle, though. I don’t need anythinggentle.
April: I have a feeling he could give you exactly what you want in the sexdepartment.
Ryan: All of this sounds amazing, it really does. But Ican’t.
Kim: Don’t say ‘can’t’ yet. Give it sometime.
I sighed in frustration but typed back that I would give it some time. I think they sensed that I hoped to move onto a different topic than the sex, but I was wrong. It only intensified incontent.
April: So let’s say the time comes and you decide you want him to fuckyou.
Kim: Don’t say “fuck.” Russell loves him and wouldn’t just fuckhim.
April: They could have a hot fuck session and it would be no less love driven than a gentle session of makinglove.
