I stand up and needlessly walk over to him to answer his question, letting the moment between us pass.“No.”
“I’ll get you something to eat, then.”He walks to the elevator and I follow him like a lost puppy, uncertain of the rise and fall of emotions inside me.When we’re apart I know what I should do, but when we’re together and his eyes roam over me...well, I’m weak.
It’s a quiet ride down.In fact, it’s quiet for the rest of the night.After he makes sure I eat something, he goes into his office and doesn’t come back out till I go back to my room.I hardly sleep the rest of the night.The only reason I knew he was out of his office was because every hour he would come into my room and check on me.He would stand by the bed and watch me while I pretended to sleep.It’s a little slice of torture being here with him so close and not being able to be with him.I’m constantly thinking about all the things we did.Ugh, I need to shut it down and go to sleep, which I finally manage to do.
The next morning I wake up to the telephone ringing.It’s Nick.
“Why are you calling me from the next room?”
“I’m not, I’m at the office.I left an hour ago and you were still sleeping.”
“Why didn’t you wake me up?”
“You needed to rest, you were tossing and turning all night.”
I wonder why.“You know you don’t have to check on me every hour.I think I’m fine now, I’ll be going home tomorrow.”
“I take my responsibilities seriously, and taking care of you is my responsibility until you leave.Now that you’re up, I expect you will go straight to the kitchen to eat breakfast.”
“Yes, sergeant major, that’s the plan.”This guy.
“Good.You need to find an OB/GYN soon.I’m going to have my assistant look some up.”
“No, you’re not!He’s not looking up anything for me.I can find my own doctor, thank you.”I knew he was going to try this nonsense.If he thinks for one minute I’m going to let him and Steve pick my OB/GYN, he better think again.This is one argument he’s not going to win.
“I want to make sure you and the baby have the best care possible.”
“It’s thoughtful of you to want to help, but I can handle that myself.I was planning on making some calls to find a doctor today.No need for you to worry about me finding the best doctor possible.”
I know it comes from a good place, but he can be such a control freak sometimes.
“All right, if you’re sure.”
“Yes, I’m sure.But thank you.”
“I’ll see you later.Call me if you need anything.”
“See you later.Bye.”Okay, truthfully, looking up OBs wasn’t in my plans for today.They are now.He’s going to want to see a list of names or an appointment for one of them.If I don’t, he’s going to return with a readymade list and an appointment already set up for me.
Cat
Who knew it would bethis hard to find a good OB/GYN?It’s taken me most of the day online.I had to make sure their medical license were up-to-date, a member of FACOG, graduated from a top college, and been in practice for at least ten years.This way he won’t have a thing to say about the doctor I choose.The doctor I found looks good.His credentials are great, and he also teaches.This would have been a lot easier if I could have asked someone like Isabelle to recommend someone, but I can’t let anyone know I’m pregnant until Nick and I discuss the best way to deal with this.
When he comes home I’m doing what I’ve been doing a lot of: napping and not eating much.
“Hey, sleeping beauty.”
“Hi,” I say, sitting up on the couch putting my legs down.
“How was your day?”
He sits on the other end of the couch—away from me—with his legs spread apart.I’m trying not to look, but my eyes are drawn to him and they won’t stay up past his crotch.I need a shower or an ice pack.He must be emitting some kind of pheromones or something.I know they say some pregnant women are easily aroused, but this is ridiculous.This is not me.Since I’ve been here, having sex with him is all I can think about, whether I’m near him or not.
“It was productive.”I try to lift my gaze up to his face and concentrate on the conversation.
“Is there something wrong?You keep looking down.”
“No!No.”Yes!I’m turned on and I can’t turn it off.“I found a doctor.”
