Dad’s mouth presses into a flat line.
“It’s not… he didn’t…” Ethan begins.
“H-he st-still lied.”
Ethan swallows hard and nods once.
I didn’t know who I was after the attack. I really don’t know who I am now—after losing the baby. I don’t remember who I was before Xander. I need to find out who I am after.
“H-he was partying, letting that… letting her… while I was losing our baby.”
“This happens all the time, Tera. He didn’t do anything,” Ethan pleads.
I nod. “Knowing it and seeing it are two different things—especially now.” I take a shuddering breath and say the one thing I never imagined I’d ever say in my life. “I don’t know if there’s any coming back from this. I just don’t.”
“Tera—” Dad begins.
I shake my head. “Ethan’s here. Where’s Xander?Where is he?”
Ethan looks at me. “I don’t know.”
I nod. “Me neither.”
And that’s pretty damning in itself.
