His smile is so genuine as his gray-blue eyes meet mine. “Thanks, Adrian.”
See, I can be kind and supportive too. So mature. No blowjobs offered.
I didn’t even suggest that I could be that person and would love to plan a future with him, even if the little voice in my head is screaming it on repeat. I know he’d never think about me in that way.
I really do deserve double chocolate treats though.
Speaking of.“So what did I do to earn multiple desserts today?”
“Oh! Thanks for reminding me. One is from my mom.”
Now I’m the one choking on air because… What? Did I hear that correctly? “Why would it be from your mom?”
“She told me to thank you for letting me stay with you. She knows how much I hate living alone and made me promise to get you something from her, and I told her that you love chocolate. So don’t be surprised if more gets delivered here from her too.”
Aww. He hates living alone? Does that mean he’s choosing to stay here? It isn’t a real estate thing? I’ll obsess overthatlittle nugget of info later. And of course the sweetest man would have the sweetest mom. Not that I’m a reflection of mine, because that woman was not nearly as great as I am.
“Well, please thank your mom for me and assure her that you are the ideal roommate.”
His smile is back to its full size, filling my heart right along with it. “Will do.”
7
HUDSON
“If they don’t go with the second house, they’re actually crazy,” I comment to Adrian.
“Oh, absolutely. I don’t know why they even showed them anything after that.”
We’re done with dinner, and I still have about an hour before I’ll realistically be able to fall asleep. We’ve moved to Adrian’s insanely comfortable couch. It’s one of those big L-shaped ones, so I’m sitting in the middle with my feet extended toward the TV, and he’s on the other end with his feet stretched out toward me.
I don’t think I’d normally even notice how close he is, but I can’t stop thinking about his comments at dinner that he isn’t Shelby while implying I was treating him like I would her.
Have I subconsciously replaced my relationship with Shelby with my friendship with Adrian because we’re living together?
I don’t think so… Shelby and I didn’t spend a ton of time together with how much I traveled, and her social calendar was always so full that we didn’t spend much time at home. When we did, we tended to focus on our physical relationship, making up for that time apart. We certainly didn’t spend a lot of time doing anything as innocent as what Adrian and I are doing now.
But that thought only reminds me of his blowjob comment.
Not sure what to do with that.
He obviously didn’t mean anything by it.
Right?
He wasn’t saying hewantedto offer to blow me. He was just trying to demonstrate that I was apparently acting more like someone would with their partner than a friend they live with.
At least, I’m pretty sure that’s what he meant. Not that it even matters. Obviously.
I mean, it would be a nice offer. If he was making it. Really nice. I bet that someone as detail oriented and enthusiastic about life as Adrian is would give excellent head. But I’m not into guys, so I would probably have to politely turn him down. Even if a blowjob sounds like exactly what I need right now.
Fuck, I should not be thinking about that while I’m not alone. My sweats aren’t hiding a thing as my dick thickens, so I shift to try to make it less obvious, but I’m not sure how successful that attempt even was.
And I definitely shouldn’t be picturing Adrian’s mouth wrapped around my cock. Shouldn’t be wondering what I would do if he crawled over to my side of the couch and offered. Would I really say no? And if I did, would I be saying no because he’s a guy, or because he’s my friend and I wouldn’t want to complicate that?
I’ve never wanted a man to give me a blowjob before. But with how fucking hard I am right now, I definitely don’t hate the idea if Adrian is the one I’m picturing doing it.
What does that say about me?
