What shocks me the most is how within the span of less than twenty-four hours, I have had two very life-altering events take place, which can both change my life forever, but I don’t see how I can have them both.
I finally get all my dreams to come true with my music, and now, I feel like it’s come to a screeching halt. But maybe that’s God’s plan. He wanted me to have that success before he opened another door for me.
I just can’t understand how yesterday was the best day of my life, so I should be solely focused on how amazing that was, yet here I sit, having no clue what my future holds.
As I lie in bed, going over what I’m going to say to Silas for the thousandth time, all I can do is cry. Cry for joy, cry for the end of my music dreams, and cry for fear of how Silas is going to react.
To my surprise, I hear my front door open and pop up in question, only to hear Nikki’s voice.
“It’s me,” she announces her arrival.
I gave her a key a while ago just so someone had access to my place if needed, and I’m so glad I did.
“I’m back here,” I respond.
I don’t bother getting up from my curled-up position in my bed and love when she joins me, wrapping her arms around me and not saying a word. Just her being here with me is enough right now.
Of course, I don’t sleep a wink. I need to talk to Silas before I worry myself into a frenzy. When I know he’s getting off, I send him a text.
I hope you got some sleep last night.
Any chance you can come over this morning?
He’s quick to respond.
I’ll be right there. Everything okay?
See you soon.
I leave it vague, which if someone did to me, it would make me worry even more, but I have no idea what else to say.
“Did you just text him?” Nikki asks as she lies next to me.
“Yeah. He’s on his way.”
She sits up. “Okay, I’ll give you guys your space.” She stands and starts to gather her things. “What are you going to say?”
“I have to just rip off the Band-Aid. Either he’ll be here for it or not. No sense in beating around the bush. I just worry because he made such a big deal, saying he’d protect me by all means.”
She purses her lips and lets out a breath, then opens her arms to me. “You know I’m here for you, right?”
We hug, and I take the time to hold her, hoping it gives me the strength I need. “Thank you.”
“God works in mysterious ways,” she says as she pulls back. “Whatever happens today, just remember that.”
“I will.”
We walk to the living room, where she grabs her things and opens the door just as Silas pulls up.
“Good luck,” she singsongs to me as he exits the truck.
“Hey.” He walks up to me with a look of concern that makes my stomach turn even more. “Everything okay?” he asks as he gives me a kiss and hug hello.
“Yeah, come on in.”
I hold his hand as I enter my house and head toward my couch and sit us both down.
“Angel, you’re worrying me. What’s going on?”
