My eyes stayed closed for so long, Jasper feeding me bite after bite slowly, as he and Dawn talked quietly. When I felt like I couldn’t eat another bite, I turned my face into Jasper’s neck once more, one of my hands tangled into the lower ends of his hair.
My fingers somehow found their way to his ear lobe, rubbing it between my thump and pointer. It was soft, and squishy and for some reason gave me a strange sort of comfort.
“Good boy,” Jasper praised. “You ate almost half. So proud of you.”
I hummed with a slow nod. I liked his words.
But I still hated him. So, I had to tell him that.
Chapter 45
“Good morning, Koda.”
Why was she so awake? It wasn’t a good morning, but there never was one.
“How are you today?”
I shot Dr. Shaw a look. I still wanted to be in bed. Not here first thing on a Monday morning.
I was pretty sure I still had sleep marks on my face to prove how early it was.
“I know, the first thing of the week is to see me, and you already want to leave. I want to leave just as much as you do, believe me. But we are both here for a reason. I’m to help, and you are to talk and tell me what troubles you today.”
“You.” I muttered. She was a trouble that was making me get up early. Actually, that was more Dawn’s fault than Dr. Shaw.
“Trying to find others to blame your emotions or actions on. Glad we are now on that stage. Anger is most likely there, too. But at least I got one word from you so far. That’s progress.”
I huffed, pulling my legs up closer to my chest. It was then I remembered I may have not let go of a stuffed animal. The first one that Jasper had given me was tucked against mychest. I wasn’t sure how I forgot I had brought it along.
I only remembered falling asleep with it tight in my grasp before Jasper had left me the night before. But had shown up this morning, dragging me out of bed.
Looking at my clothes, I was still in the same thing as last night, too.
“I’m assuming you know that Dawn called me yesterday to get you in so early. Before I normally see clients. So do you want to tell me what’s going on?”
Not really. I shrugged, pulling the stuffed animal to my face and breathing it in.
“Did Dawn come with you today?” I shook my head. “I hope you didn’t drive.”
“Jasper”
“Jasper? I must be missing a lot of important information. I don’t think you’ve ever mentioned him before.”
Because I hadn’t.Well, maybe like once I had. I couldn’t remember.
I waved towards the door, and the waiting area where he was waiting for me. Unlike Dawn, he didn’t want to wait in the car.
“Tell me about this Jasper, then?”
“I hate him.”
“Yet you still allowed him to drive you here today.”
I shrugged.
“Tell me more. Is he nice?”
“Makes me…feel.” I felt a lot of things I didn’t want to do.
