“You’re supposed to trust me,” he growls, moving closer once again. This time, I don’t have anywhere to go. “You’re supposed to believe that I’m doing what I say I’m doing because I have no reason to lie to you.”
“That’s really hard to believe,” I say, holding back tears.
“Why?” he asks, like what I said was the most ridiculous thing possible. “Why is it so hard to think I’d be faithful to you? What have I ever done to make you think I wouldn’t be?”
He’s right.
He’s never done anything to make me think this. Not until now.
“Staying out late. Being shady about where you are and who you’re with.”
“I told you what I was doing. And I told you I can’t be specific about it. Don’t you think that if I was cheating on you, I’d come up with some elaborate story to make it more believable? Why the fuck would I givethisas a story?”
Damnit. He’s right about that too.
“Maybe it’s easier than keeping up with too many lies,” I add, though I don’t really believe that. Do I?
Grizz isn’t a liar. I know he’s not.
At least… I thought he wasn’t? Now, I’m not so sure.
He sighs, running a hand through his hair. It drops to his side, then he raises both arms and drops them again like he can’t figure out what to say or how to act.
“I don’t know what you want me to say. I’m not lying to you. I was not with any women, not a single one. You want me to call Snapper?”
He pulls his phone from his pocket, holding it up.
“As if he wouldn’t lie for you,” I say just above a whisper.
“Snapper?” He scoffs. “That asshole ain’t lying for anyone. You should know better than that.”
I shake my head again. “The only thing I’m certain of is that you’re part of an MC. And I know what that means.Loyalty.Don’t act like any guy in the club wouldn’t lie to save your ass.”
I turn on my heel and head down the hall and into the bedroom. I can’t argue with him about this. The more he talks, the more he makes me believe that I’m crazy and he isn’t doing anything wrong.
But is he?
I was so sure he was, but maybe I’m doing it to myself. Maybe I’m just worriedbecauseI love him, and because I know all these things are true… that if he was lying to me, I’d never know. Everyone around him would be on his side. They’d lie to me, and they’d stick up for him.
Maybe this isn’t about him cheating on me at all.
Maybe it’s about me being lonely because he’s gone all day… and because I don’t have anyone who’s loyal to me like that.
Chapter Forty-One
Grizz
I watch as Anastacia moves down the hall and disappears into the bedroom. Everything in me wants to go after her, but I should give her a few minutes to think about what just happened.
She can’t really think I’d cheat on her, can she?
I guess I can see why she would think that, with me being out so late when I never was before, but damn… I thought we were better than this?
“Everything okay?”
Tommy comes down the stairs, running his hand through his hair.
“Yeah, all good. Just off to bed.”
