“You.” It was the truth. All I had been thinking about was Max, even when I tried not to. He just seemed to linger in mythoughts.
“And…?” I had to say it. Someonedid.
“I don’t think I can be the woman you want, and I don’t think you can be the man that I need.” I didn’t know why I said it, but in my heart, I knew that at least a little of what I was telling him was the truth, just maybe not the part about him. I heard his sharp gasp as he took another step forward. Our bodies were pressed together, but nothing else touched but ourchests.
He took my face in his hands. We stood there, staring at each other. I knew he wasn’t the kind of guy I needed right now, but I couldn’t help the pull that I felt towards him. I closed my eyes and breathed in. Max leaned his forehead against mine and I took a step closer. His hands moved down to my waist, looping aroundme.
“Max, I can’t do this. I’m not ready to settle downagain.”
“You talk too much.” His lips touched mine, and that was when I opened my eyes. I pushed him away quickly, but Max’s hold tightened onme.
“You can’t just fix things with akiss.”
“There isn’t anything to fix yet, but I’ll remember that.” He brought my face back close to his. “You don’t have to settle down with me yet, but I’m not letting you out of mylife.”
“Max, please.” The plea didn’t sound painful, but more a sound with pleasure attached to it. Max was going to break my heart one day, and my mind had made itself up that it didn’t really give a shit. I was losing all control in thissituation.
“I’m not letting you out of my life, Alexa. I have worked too hard to get here with you. I don’t care what your past is or where we go, but right now all I want to do is kiss you again.” He moved a little closer to me, but this time I didn’t push him away. “And this time I don’t want to holdback.”
With that, his lips were on mine and my body melted into his. His right arm lifted me ever so slightly off the ground as I pulled my arms around his neck and brought his head down closer. His lips tasted salty, making me crave him more. Max’s left hand gently tugged on my hair, pulling our lips away from each other and sending his directly to my neck. A moan escaped my lips, and his reaction was to slam me down on my vanity dresser. My back was against the cold mirror; my legs naturally went around his waist, bringing his hips to mycore.
He fit perfectly there and I could feel him growing harder. He growled against my neck and captured my lips again. He moved his hands to the hem of my tank, slowly caressing my sides and up the middle of my back. I started to think how familiar this was and I stilled myself under his touch. I hadn’t thought about my dream about Max since the week ithappened.
“What’s wrong?” Max leaned his forehead against mine. The moment felt so intimate that I didn’t want to ruinit.
“Nothing.”
I kissed him again until I couldn’t breathe, but he stopped me. Pulling my face close. I kept my eyesclosed.
“Lies.”
“If I told you, you wouldn’t believe me.” Lilly almost didn’t believe me when I told her ithappened.
“Tryme.”
“I’ve thought about this before.” That sure caught his attention. He stood straight against me, lips no longer touching my body. I missed the lingering tingle of hisscruff.
“What do you mean?” The look in his eyes told me just how curious he was about myanswer.
“When I was still with Adam, I had a dream about you, but it wasn’t you to begin with, and then it was you, and it just kind of happened, but—” Max stopped my jabber with a finger to mylips.
“So you’re telling me that while you were still with your husband, you were having sex dreams aboutme?”
I wanted to smack the smug look off his face. “Yes.” I tried not to say it too loud, because even though it was only a dream, it felt almost like I was as bad as Adam, but I knew Iwasn’t.
“I couldn’t have asked for better words to come out of your mouth.” He claimed my mouth and moved us to my bed. It wasn’t big, just a full size. We lingered in the air with me in his arms before Max tossed me towards the center of the bed. I lay on my back staring at him towering over me. I had never seen lust in a man’s eyes before, but that’s exactly what it looked like inMax’s.
“Max.” He moved himself above me, with both arms on each side of myface.
“Yes, mydarling.”
“We can’t do this right now.” I tried not to swoon. I loved it when he called me hisdarling.
“And why not?” A finger moved down my throat, sending shivers through my body. I could feel Max’s length growing against myleg.
“Because I’m pretty sure I just heard Lilly and Erica accidentally hit the door.” A few choice curse words came from outside my room and then the TV blasted throughout theapartment.
I pushed Max off me and straightened myself up. We stood there in silence, not looking at each other. I didn’t know what it was between us, but it scared me. There was too much passion happening all at once. The room felt like it was closing in on us, trying to bring us closer together. I needed to getout.
