He puts his arm around my back and rolls us, so we’re both lying on our sides, facing each other. Our sofa is nowhere near as wide as Joe’s, but somehow, we fit. It helps that our bodies are touching.
“Really,” he says, stroking my face.
“So, umm, your sister was right?”
“It’s looking that way.”
“How did we not know?”
Addy shrugs. “Maybe we’retoocomfortable with each other.”
We’re obviously very comfortable right now because I can feel the thick bulge of his cock pressing against me. Heat flushes my face as I realise I’m getting hard too. Is it because we’ve been kissing or our current close proximity? I shouldn’t be embarrassed, but I am. This is new territory. We’ve hugged and cuddled so many times, but my body hasneverreacted like this before. It’s scary.
I shuffle down so I can rest my head against his chest. At the same time, I angle my body so I can’t feel his erection anymore, and he can’t feel mine.
“I don’t want things to change, Addy.”
He strokes my back. “Nor do I.”
I know there’s a ‘but’ coming. There has to be because we can’t exactly pretend that nothing’s happened. Everything’s changed. I’m not sure if I want to strangle Vanessa or hug her for pushing us into this boundary-breaking moment. Of course,Icould have completely ignored her and shrugged off her theory, but I didn’t. I asked Addy to kiss me.Ichanged everything.I’vepotentially fucked up our entire friendship.
“But things will change,” Addy says. He puts his fingers under my chin and tips my face up. “I want to kiss you again for a start.”
I brave a smile. “And then what, Addy? I havenoclue what to do with another man. Kissing might be mechanically the same, beard rash aside, but nothing else will be.”
“You could always ask your brother for advice.”
I put my hands over my ears. “Don’teversuggest that again.”
Addy laughs. “You don’t think his insight and experience could be helpful?”
“I think he’d spend half an hour laughing at me before he got around to saying anything useful.”
I think back to last night and that weird-as-fuck conversation with Sophie, which doesn’t seem weird anymore. Vanessa’s right.Everyoneknew butus.
“We’re so oblivious. Seriously, Addy, how can we not haveknownthat there was something between us? I’ve been planning a Valentine’s meal for you to share with a blind date, for fuck’s sake. I was enjoying it too. Shouldn’t I have been jealous or something?”
“I don’t know,” Addy confesses. “I’m as confused as you are. But I know one thing.”
“What’s that?”
“I want to kiss you again.” He does. “And again.”
The pressure and movement of his lips make me tingle and melt in equal measure. “You kiss well.”
“So do you.”
“But what about the rest? I’m not just confused, Addy. I’m scared.”
“Of what?”
“What if I don’tlikethe things two guys do together? What ifyoudon’t?”
He grasps my face. “Fitz.”
“Yes?”
“Have we or have we not been perfectly happy living and spending time together for the last few years?”
