“Of course I do.” He cups my face. “You’re my world.”
I sigh, dipping my head so far my chin touches my chest.
“Cold feet?”
“You could say that.” I sigh and look at him. “I saw Wyatt. He’s home. His dad is ill, and he’s on leave. I should have expected it, but I didn’t.”
He grits his teeth. “So, this is what this is all about. You and Wyatt, rekindling that old flame.”
“It isn’t like that; we haven’t slept together.” I had to say it. “Although, we got pretty close.”
He squeezes his eyes together, rubbing his temples. “It’s always, always going to be him, isn’t it?”
“I don't know. I’m just so confused.”
“You shouldn’t be. Not if you were sure about me.”
His words break my heart. He’s right. I always gave less than he did in this relationship.
“I have loved you from the moment I laid eyes on you again in that flower shop, and all I want is to know you love me too.”
“I do. I—”
“Not as a friend, or as a substitute, but as the one you want to spend your life with. If that isn’t how you feel, you’re hurting us both. I thought fate brought us together that day, but maybe it was just a coincidence, much like everything else.”
He spoke from his heart, raw and honest.
“How many times is he going to leave and forget you exist? How many times are you going to put your life on hold for that man?”
“It’s not like he has a choice; he’s enlisted in the army.”
“They have phones now, Hay. It’s not the dark ages. When was the last time he called you or even wrote to you? Hayley. He left you. Now he’s back, and you’re willing to turn your back on me, on us, our future, just like that? How stupid can you be?”
He’s right. I am stupid. So stupid. But that is something I need to speak to Wyatt about.
“I am sorry, Logan, for everything I couldn’t be.”
“I’m sorry for everything you choose to be, Hayley.”
And with that, he stands and leaves the room. I place my ring on the counter and slowly make my way out of his apartment. Looking back and wishing I hadn’t complicated his life the way I have.
“I am so sorry.”
I close the door behind me.
