Page 56 of Whip’s Wisdom

I look at my son like I am seeing a stranger. I don’t even understand where all this is coming from.

“Let me be real clear, I never went without a condom until Liz. In case you didn’t know, I’ll give you some sex education because your fucking ass is twenty-seven years old and should fucking know that condoms are not 100%. Now, I didn’t ask for all this to happen to me. I didn’t ask for Whip’s fucking mom to keep him from me for twenty-nine fucking years. I didn’t know that my own fucking kid was in the club. That he was right in front of my fucking face for years!” I slam my hand down hard on the table. “Your mom didn’t fucking tell me she was pregnant with you and I didn’t know you existed until she died. You think that is fair for me? You think I woke up one day and said I’m going to fucking knock up every bitch I come across and see what one sticks. I was young! I did a lot of shit, kind of like what your fucking ass is doing right now! You think no one sees the fucking shit you pull. I’ve been at these parties, boy. I know what the fuck you do! I also know about the games you are fucking playing with that sweet girl that Peyton and Parker are friends with.

You want to fuck around, you go ahead and fucking do it. I can’t sit here and tell you not to because my ass stuck my dick in a bunch of bitches before I met Liz. I tried to find a woman to be like a mother to you after yours passed. I tried to settle down and I’m sorry Trevor’s mom wasn’t the one for either of you. I can’t regret the shit I did when I was younger because it gave me you and your brothers. Do I wish some things could have been different? Hell yeah I do! So you either get your shit together and stop blaming me for shit I cannot control or you don’t. I don’t give a fuck right now. I will love you no matter what you do or what you say because I am your dad. I just don’t understand where this anger and frustration is coming from. You won’t fucking talk to me!”

He looks away and then looks back at me.

“I got that girl Rose pregnant. She won’t talk to me. She found out I was not exclusive with her while we were sleeping together even though I made no commitments. Well at least that’s what I made her believe. Turns out the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree because another bitch I fucked a couple of years ago before I met Rose, had my kid. Came looking for me because she needed fucking money. So yeah, apparently my ass is just like his old man.”

With that he storms out of the room and I look over at Trevor who has not said a word since he asked about why we were in the room getting information about Whip.

“Did you know about any of this?”

“No, he didn’t tell me anything. He never does. I’d ask Lash. But it does explain a lot about why he’s been disappearing.”

I nod my head and the both of us head out of the room towards the waiting room, hoping that we can get in to see Cooper soon.

Chapter Thirty-Four

Peyton

I’ve been watching as Cooper sleeps for the past few hours hoping that at any moment he would open his eyes. Knox and the babies are sitting in the corner playing. Devil came in for a little while and sat with us, he wanted to take the little kids home so asked that we keep him updated on everything that is going on and when Cooper wakes up.

I still feel so helpless, I am glad they were able to find him alive, but it is horrible that we are still sitting in a hospital bed waiting for him to wake up. There is so much I want to say and so much I want to do. I know they’ve gave him the all clear, but it doesn’t really mean much when he won’t open his eyes and his body has been so badly beaten. Who does this to their family? Knox told me his brother was one of the men that took him and tried to obviously get something from him that he was unwilling to share. I can’t even imagine the amount of pain he went through when they had him.

It breaks my heart to see him like this. To see this man that has been through so much, even more than I know, broken by people that were supposed to love him be put in this bed like this. This life has so much pain and suffering in it and I know that everything is worth it, but I just hate that we have to sit and do all this. It seems like we have been living in hospitals for years at this point. We’ve been dealing with some crazy motorcycle club that is after my family, crazy bat shit club girls, mafias that want to help these crazy assholes and now this. Now we’ve got a mafia around us trying to take someone away from me again all because his fucking blood brother decided that he would be a good way to get points with the boss.

“What are you thinking so hard about over there?” I hear rasped and my head shoots up and I look at Cooper and Knox is up out of his chair and rushes over.

“Fuck, Cooper you had us so worried!”

“I’m okay, baby. I’ve been through this and then some. So don’t worry.” He says as he wipes away the tears I didn’t know were falling down my cheek.

“Daddy!” Rowan squeals from Knox’s arms and Cooper chuckles while putting his arms out.

The triplets all call Cooper daddy and Knox dada. I’m sure when they get bigger that will change, but for now they are almost one and we are taking it. Rowan basically jumps out of Knox’s arms and into Cooper’s and you see Cooper wince, but doesn’t let it show that he is in any pain.

“Hey little man. Have you been good for mama and daddy?”

Rowan babbles back a bunch of words and you have no idea what he is saying, but Cooper pretends along that they are having a full conversation.

“Thanks for coming to save my ass. I didn’t really know if I was going to make it out of there. Where are all the men?” Cooper asks without taking his eyes off Rowan.

“Luca Moretti took the other Italians. We have your brother. While, Chaos has your brother. Thorn made sure of it. Speaking of Thorn, I’m gonna go get him and Devil. Give you guys a few minutes.” He reaches down and takes Rowan from Cooper and walks him over to the little playpen we set up before walking out the door.

“Devil, huh?” He looks at me with a sad smile.

“Yeah, Devil. I’m sorry you didn’t find out until now, but I am glad that you finally found out. Devil is probably taking it just as hard, hating that he didn’t know about you until now. I think he wants to kill your mom. I guess I just don’t know how bad you had it.”

He looks at me and goes to speak and I put my hand up, “That wasn’t me trying to get you to tell me all your secrets, Cooper. I just really until this shit, I guess I didn’t realize how much you probably needed a family outside of the one that was supposed to keep you safe. I hate that for you. I’ve felt so helpless and I’m just so glad you’re okay!”

He scooches over a little, winces as he goes, “Come here, baby.”

I climb onto the bed, careful not to pull any of the cords or anything he has attached to him. He puts his arm around my shoulder and then lifts my chin so I am looking at him. He bends his head down and kisses me. When he pulls away he places his forehead against mine.

“I know you weren’t fishin’ for any information, baby. I also know that I need to tell you a lot of shit, not because you want to know, but because it will be good for both of us. I owe you a lot of explanations. There are a couple things I want you to know more than anything before we go too deep down the rabbit hole.”

“Yeah, what’s that?”