Page 26 of His Reckless Freshman

It springs out of his underwear, and I try not to gape at it while he rolls the condom over himself.

He glances at my face, smiling at me when he reaches back under my dress and tugs my underwear off. My limbs are trembling, but he doesn’t seem to notice. My eyes follow the white cotton as he drops it onto the mattress beside him.

My heart is now crashing against my rib cage, stealing my breath as he stretches out over me.

This is happening.

I’m about to have sex.

Do I want this?

You can’t say no now!

Biting my bottom lip, I try to ignore my quivering stomach as Kieran kisses my neck again. His breath whispers over my skin when he nudges my legs a little farther apart with his knee. His condom-wrapped penis trails against my inner thigh, and I’m so tense I think I might implode.

This is all so new and foreign and⁠—

You can stop it if you want to.

But I feel like I can’t.

I’m in this now, and I am curious, so I’m just going to go with it.

Pressing his lips into my neck, Kieran nudges his tip against my opening. I grip the back of his shoulders, my heart now racing between my ears. I can’t hear anything anymore. All I can do is stare up at the pretty ceiling as he nudges again and starts to push inside me.

I’m not sure he’s going to fit. It seems kind of tight and⁠—

Ahhhh! Ow!

A burning hot pain tears me when he adds some more pressure and slides into me. His penis feels like a broad sword. It slices right through me, a brutal intrusion that I was not expecting.

I can’t help flinching, and he pauses for a second but then eases back and plunges into me again. Not roughly or anything, but… ow. It hurts.

Is it supposed to hurt like this?

I’ve heard the first time can, but I didn’t think I’d feel like I’d been cut in half.

I basically know nothing. Sex education at school was minimal, and sex education at home was nothing more than “Don’t do it until your wedding night!” I’ve sneakily read the odd steamy scene from romance novels, and they always make sex sound amazing. Caroline’s told me it’s amazing too and that she loves it, but that’s about it.

I’m not loving this.

Kieran groans and keeps moving, thrusting in and out of me… and all I can do is fight my tears.

I don’t like this.

I don’t like this at all.

“Feel so good,” Kieran whispers against my ear, moving a little faster.

Clinging to his shoulders, I continue to fight my tears, hoping this will be over soon.

I guess I could push him off me, but that’s kind of embarrassing, and I’m not sure if he’ll like that. I’ll just stay. I’ll just lie here. It’ll be over soon, right?

Moving up to his elbows, Kieran checks my face, and I give him a tight smile.

He grins back at me, pumping a little harder, then burying his head into the crook of my neck and grunting.

I can feel his heart hammering against my chest, his breaths getting short and punchy. Running his hand down my leg, he squeezes my thigh, and I think the end is in sight, because he’s now making this high-pitched kind of groan and his thrusts are getting urgent and…