Page 64 of Knot Now Knot Ever

“Okay, that’s enough talking out of you, open up,” Zachary cut in, stuffing part of a sandwich into Fawn’s mouth. “We’re catching a lucky break here, and I plan to make the most out of it.”

Fawn’s eyes narrowed as he chewed, but I knew he was as hungry as I was. It’s as if our bodies forgot other things were needed to function, but once reminded, it demanded to be fed. I polished off the sandwich and fresh fruit like a starved animal, but my belly finally felt satisfied. A wave of sleepiness washed over me, and I yawned.

“How has it only been a day?” I murmured.

“It’s been almost three since Eli came over,” Pascal informed me. “We’ve been here with you for almost two.”

Frowning, I rubbed my temple, trying to figure out where I’d lost so much time. After Tanner’s orgasm marathon, Eli took my ass again, then Pascal stole me when I started to whine, and that brings us to now, right?

“Why do I feel like so much time shouldn’t have passed?” I questioned.

“I can’t answer that for you, beautiful, but after fucking for two days straight, I think your body couldn’t take much more, and you passed out for a solid six hours,” Pascal shared.

“Does that mean my heat is over? Normally, they are about four days long, but this one came early,” I pondered, trying to sort out my memories.

“Angel,” Fawn called from where he was kneeling in front of me and placed a hand on my knee. “You’re okay and in a safe place with people you can trust. We have nowhere to be, and no one is missing anything important because we’re on courting leave.”

I hadn’t realized how fast my heart was beating or how anxious I felt until a stream of calming energy was poured into me from my bond with Fawn.

“That’s it, angel. Take a deep breath and let all those jittery feelings go,” Fawn encouraged, taking my hands.

It took a few breaths, but I finally felt myself settle back to a feeling of normalcy. Pascal’s arms around my waist tightened slightly as he curled himself over me in a hug. “What happened, beautiful? One moment you were fine, and the next, Fawn was rushing over.”

“I-I don’t like the feeling of losing time,” I admitted. “When I woke up and found myself being pulled out of the car, not having a clue as to what happened, it was terrifying. How could I not remember why Mother and I were even in the car? Where were we going that was so important she’d drive in the rain? Mother hated driving in bad weather. To this day, I remember flashes of things or feelings, but if the police hadn’t told me what they discovered in the investigation, I wouldn’t remember a damn thing. It makes you feel so powerless.”

Fawn shifted closer and kissed both my hands he still held. “Please don’t take this the wrong way, angel, but when I was in your bathroom, I noticed two pill bottles on the counter. I know one of them is an anti-anxiety medication because I was on it for a little while. Have you been taking that medication daily?”

“Yes,” I answered, following his train of thought. “But I forgot to take one before going to the spa, and I doubt I’ve taken them since. Oh God, no wonder I’m freaking out.”

“Hey, none of that,” Eli interjected as he stepped out of the bathroom with both pill bottles. “None of us for a second thought you were freaking out. We’ll get you back on your medication and whatever else you need to have a happy, amazing life.”

Fawn pointed to the right bottle, and Eli dumped out the five pills left. I’d meant to reach out to Dr. Barnett, but it kept slipping my mind with everything going on.

“Do you need this other pill as well?” Eli questioned.

“No, that’s something I carry with me because it’s fast-acting. If I end up in a situation where I feel myself being triggered, and I can’t get out of it, I take one to keep from losing my shit,” I explained, taking the pill Eli offered.

“Good to know. I think all of us should carry one just in case you find yourself without them,” Eli suggested. “Crew and I did the same thing for Bailey-Rose. Personally, I feel it’s always better to be overprepared and never need it.”

The guys all mumbled their agreement, and while I appreciated their unquestioning acceptance of this part of my life, it didn’t make me despise it any less. Now, they’d each have a reminder with them that I could become a basket case at any time. I was a mentally ill ticking time bomb that could be put back together but never truly fixed. How was that fair to them?

“Oh fuck.” I gasped, my body jolting as scorching hot waves of pain and pleasure slammed into me. Looking down, I found Fawn’s hand between my legs, and the cheeky bastard had purposely pinched my clit to snap me out of my downward spiral. “What the hell?”

Fawn shrugged and proceeded to sink two fingers in my pussy. “Don’t they say the best way to combat negative emotions is to redirect your thoughts? Tell me, angel, are you still thinking about how broken and inconvenient you believe yourself to be?”

If my jaw could have hit the floor, it would have. However, it was quickly picked back up as I moaned, feeling his fingers teasing my G-spot. Holy shit, this man was a fast study.

“I didn’t think so,” Fawn purred, licking his mark on my neck, and immediately had me coming on his fingers. “Passie, you don’t mind if I steal her so I don’t end up fucking her on your lap, do you?”

Pascal laughed and kissed my cheek before climbing off the bed. “Not at all… you two have fun. I’m gonna get some food.”

Fawn wasted no time ensuring his distraction would work. He rolled me onto my side, lifted my leg to drape over his thigh, and lined his cock up to thrust into my ass. We both groaned once he was balls deep and simply savored the feeling of being connected. Our bond doubled the pleasure we were feeling. It was like an endless loop, and we kept feeding each other the emotions. Fawn ran his nose over my mark, causing my hips to buck and drive him deep.

When his hips started moving, I grabbed his ass, holding onto him so his thrusts didn’t push me away. Sensing my problem, Fawn placed a hand low on my stomach, keeping me in place while his other hand massaged my breast. In this position, I couldn’t do anything but enjoy what was being done, and I loved it.

The bed dipped, and I opened my eyes to discover Zachary stretched out beside us. “Pascal got me thinking… any chance you’d be up for a second cock joining in?”

Grinning, I reached out, inviting him to come play. It took a little rearranging of limbs, but we figured it out, and I was in heaven. Fawn and Zachary found their rhythm alternating their thrusts to start, but as Fawn grew more confident, they were soon rocking my world at a breakneck speed.