Page 9 of Knot All Is Ruined: Part 1

My hopes went unheard as time ticked on, and he was still snoring so fucking loudly. Groaning, I flopped on my back to look up at the skylight in hopes that counting the stars might help me fall asleep. As I counted, I kept losing track each time I caught a trace of his scent causing my body to hum. Even though I’d never gone through a heat, I’d gotten horny before, which gave me some hope I wasn’t completely broken. The other girls who’d gone through heat talked about how insatiable they were for weeks after, and the only option was to deal with it themselves. Some talked about using their fingers, while others asked for dildos or similar options to accomplish the same need.

Slowly I slid my hand down my stomach to the top of my jeans. They were loose enough that I could have slipped my hand in them without undoing the button, but I’d get a better angle if I did. By the sound of the even bouts of snoring, it was clear Lucian was fast asleep. The sound of the zipper seemed so loud in my ears yet there wasn’t even a hint of change in Lucian’s breathing. I wriggled around so I could stretch out, then shoved my jeans and underwear down onto my thighs.

Closing my eyes, I took a deep breath letting Lucian’s scent curl around me. Gliding my hand between my legs, I felt how wet I was and used it as my finger slid over my opening and then up to my clit. Unbidden, my mind pictured his body in the soft lamplight and how the shadows it cast emphasized all his muscles. His gray-blue eyes pinned me in place as he stroked himself, heat glowing in them. I timed my movement to his using two fingers to swirl over my nub sending jolts of pleasure through my body. As he moved faster, the need I had wasn’t getting met with what I was doing, so I let a finger sink inside me.

Fuck I needed more.

Adding a second finger was better, but I couldn’t seem to get the right spot. Frustrated, I let out a small growl and kicked off my pants, pulling my knees up. When I reinserted my fingers I was able to find that sweet spot that made my body shake when I came. Lucian’s scent got stronger the faster my fingers moved, and it was almost as if I could feel his hot breath on my body ratcheting up my desire. Damn, who knew all I needed was to watch some Alpha porn to get myself in the mood.

Arching my back, I felt my orgasm building so I slid my free hand under my shirt and palmed my breast. My nipples were so hard and erect, that they ached as I rolled them between my fingers. God, I’d never been this sensitive before. A moan escaped my mouth before I could stop it, although I was too far gone to care. Instead, I bit my bottom lip keeping my mouth shut as I imploded. Euphoric pleasure flooded my body unlike anything I’d ever felt before making me sigh.

“It seems you were more affected by my little show than you let on,” Lucian said, his voice was thick with need and sounding like it was right in front of me.

Snapping my eyes open, I lifted my head and there between my legs, his face inches away from my pussy, was Lucian. I started to say something, but he closed the distance and locked his mouth on my pussy. The feel of his tongue laving over my sensitive clit made me shout and buck my hips. He growled against me, which had me moaning with the vibrations of the sound. Placing his hands on the back of my thighs, he pressed my legs to my chest and speared his tongue into my pussy.

“Oh my god,” I cried as sensations I’d never felt before flooded my body.

Never had I experienced something like this when I touched myself. It was like every movement and touch was charged with electricity. My hands groped for something to hold on to and finally settled on his forearms as I dug my nails into his skin. He paused to hiss, but it didn’t slow him down for long as he dove right back in.

Licking, nipping, and sucking every inch of my pussy Lucian brought me to tears as another orgasm ripped through my body. This one made my eyes see stars, and my whole body shook as I screamed long and loud. Just when I thought he had to be finished with me, he caught my ankles together and held them both in one hand. He pulled them to the side, shifting my lower half so he could pin my legs to the floor. Struggling to figure out what he was doing, I tensed as I felt a finger slide into me.

That finger stroked my innermost parts, and it was amazing and terrifying all at the same time. The roughness of his finger just added to the sensations, and I groaned when he pulled out, craving for him to put it back in. Fighting the urge to beg him to do just that, I bit my bottom lip hard enough that it hurt attempting to clear the lust-filled fog in my brain. I shouldn’t have worried because Lucian had only pulled his one finger out so he could replace it with two. The fullness I was feeling was what I could achieve with three fingers telling me just how thick his hands were. They were the hands of a man, a warrior, and the man who planned on fucking me until I gave him a child.

“Get you’re fucking hands off me, you bastard,” I snarled and tried to wriggle out of his hold, only for a stinging crack to land on my asscheek.

“Lay still, breeder,” Lucian ordered. “You are mine to use as I like, be glad that I’m willing to warm you up so shoving my cock in you won’t be as surprising.”

While my lower body was pinned to the floor, my upper body was still free, so I shoved up on my arm to glare at him. “Don’t you dare pretend you are doing anything with my care in mind. It’s been made perfectly clear to me how you view your breeders.” I spat that last word hating every syllable. “I said get your fucking hands off me. Don’t you know the meaning of the word no? Or did that privilege get revoked once I crossed the border into Asturg?”

“Watch your mouth,” he warned with a growl rumbling in his voice. “You are an Omega, and I am an Alpha. Your Alpha, whose mark you bear clearly on display for all to see.”

Grabbing the pillow behind me, I hurled it at him but, at the same time threw myself off balance and thudded to the ground. “You’re a beast, an animal, all of you are. Who the hell brands people? It's barbaric.”

“You have a lot to say for a slutty Omega who was just stroking herself and moaning loud enough to wake me from a dead sleep.” Running his finger through the lips of my pussy and showing me his glistening fingers. “Your body doesn’t seem to be complaining about this one bit. It would appear it doesn’t mind at all that I’m more animal than man.”

Rage and fear collided inside me as I realized it didn’t matter what I wanted or how much I fought. I’d never be able to stop him if he decided to do what he wanted with me. Tears rolled down my cheeks as I stared him down.

“Do what you want, Alpha. It’s not like it matters if I care or what trauma I’ll have after you’re finished with me. Just know I’ll never give you what you want. This body won’t ever produce a child for you,” I announced, giving him a smirk as tears still leaked from my eyes. “Guess it sucks you got stuck with the one Omega who doesn’t go into heat.”

It was probably stupid of me to have told him that, but right now I was too fucking pissed to care.

Lucian jerked back from me as if my words had actually slapped him. Sitting there on his heels, he regarded me with a wary eye. “What do you mean you can’t have children?”

“I’m sure even you know this, but the only time an Omega can get pregnant is when they are in heat. Well, I don’t have heats.” I tossed at him as I moved away and put my back to the wall with my knees hugged to my chest.

To my absolute and utter shock, Lucian let out a sigh as his whole body relaxed. “Thank fuck.”

Totally fucking confused, I just sat there silently watching him and curious to see if he would explain that reaction. Every single person I’d interacted with since coming here had been shoving it down my throat that I needed to have a child. Now here was the goddamn commander looking like I just gave him the best present ever at not being able to do that.

Lucian walked over to a dresser, pulled out a pair of boxers, tossed them at me, and then put a pair on himself. “This conversation needs clothes.”

Not looking a gift horse in the mouth, I hurried to pull them on, though I didn’t move from the corner. Lucian pulled the chair so he sat in front of me but made sure there was enough space between us.

“Now that you’re talking to me, even though I think I enjoyed you more when you didn’t speak, will you tell me your name?” Lucian asked.

Narrowing my eyes, I considered if I should tell him the truth or not. Then again, what good would it do for me to lie and tell him something fake? If using my name got him to stop calling me breeder, then it was a no-brainer.

“I’ll tell you what it is if you promise to stop calling me breeder. It’s disgusting,” I challenged.