Page 42 of The Forgotten Throne

Reaching out I took the letter from him and took his hands in mine. “Have I ever told you about the dreams I had of Queen Miranda?”

“Queen Miranda?”

“I forget you didn’t know her as that—the Raven Queen,” I corrected. “When Vasin and I first came to the Raven Rose clan I harmonized with him, this is where he allows me into his mind and we become one being essentially. Within doing that I have access to his vast knowledge that he shares with all the dragons that are living. It’s where they store every memory that every dragon has ever had since King Yash bonded with his dragon. The rule of that place is that only the dragon can control the information, but I didn’t listen and I almost got lost in his mind. Cole was able to ground me and help bring me back to my own body but from that point I was able to have these visions about a woman and her men. Turns out it was the Raven Queen, I got to watch her life as a child until the day she died. They were so real, I could feel her emotions as her dragon and the men she loved with all her heart died. It was as if my own heart was carved from my chest and my soul shattered along with her. If his visions of us were anything like that then yes, they were real to him, it would seem like it already happened and he just had to stand by and watch, able to do nothing.” I paused and took a deep shaky breath as I tried to calm myself. “This is why I believe this letter and what it says. If there is a way for us to beat the Lost King and his army, it will be found somewhere in this castle.”

Jade searched my face when I finished speaking as if needing to understand something I wasn’t telling him with my words. “Is this why you hold us at a distance, because you know what it will be like to lose us? You think that waiting to let us into your heart until after you’ve dealt with the Lost King will protect us both from that pain don’t you...”

Tears welled up in my eyes as his words hit my heart like a dagger. He was right. All of them have worked their way deep into my heart but I refused to acknowledge it for fear that I would lose them before I got enough time with them. The pain that ripped through Miranda when she watched them die to save her wasn’t something I was willing to risk. They all loved me enough to wait because I asked without question, but now that Jade knew, he was never going to let that stand. He was always the one pushing me, challenging my feelings for him and the others. My dark knight wasn’t scared to make me mad when he knew I was wrong and just the look in his eyes right now told me I was absolutely going to lose this fight.

Pulling me to his chest he wrapped a hand around the back of my neck keeping still as he kissed me. Our kiss was desperate as I wrapped my arms around him, fisting his shirt in case he dared to move away from me. Now that he’d exposed my fear and forced me to face it I couldn’t run from my feelings any more. His other hand slid down my hip until he scooped my ass up and set me on the desk so I was more level with him as he pushed my legs apart to fit up against me. I felt his fingers slid into my hair cupping the back of my head as he deepened our kiss, our tongues tasting each other in the most intimate way I’d ever experienced. He growled against my lips as if he wasn’t getting what he needed from me but I didn’t know how to help never having been in this position before.

Pulling back from me I cried out fearful he was going to stop, instead he gripped my face with both hands eyes wild with passion as he looked at me. “Cassarah, I love you with every fiber of my being and I can’t stand not being able to show you just what that looks like. I know you’re scared but I refuse to let that bastard king win by controlling this part of our life together. Whether it’s one day, one week, one month I want to be able to love you for however long we have and not regret missing out on this... Do you trust me?”

“Yes,” I breathed, my lips brushing his. “With everything that I am, I trust you, Jade.”

“Then trust me enough to love you,” he begged.

“Show me... show me what that looks like, my dark knight,” I said as my hands slipped under his shirt so they lay flat against his skin. “Show me how to love like you do.”

Chapter Twenty-Seven

Finally Love Has Come

Jade slammed his lips to mine as he picked me up causing me to wrap my legs around his hips as he walked into the bedroom. Gently he laid me out on the bed letting his hands run from my face all the way down to my hips as if he was memorizing the feel of my body. He took the bottom of my shirt and started to lift it kissing along my bare skin as it was exposed letting his tongue glide tasting me. A sigh slipped from my lips as the feel of his mouth on my body, it was almost like a fire was starting to burn just under the skin fueled by every touch he made. My head fell back as he reached my breasts, his fingers skimming over the fabric that was wrapped tight to my chest. I was a little worried that he would have trouble getting that off of me but I should have known better.

I gasped at the cool touch of one of his daggers gliding along my flesh as he deftly cut away the obstructing fabric freeing me to his gaze. Making quick work of my shirt I tossed it to the side knowing it was just getting in the way. Looking up at Jade he just sat there hovering over me, his eyes drinking in the sight of my bare skin like he was looking at a work of art.

“Absolutely stunning,” he murmured as he leaned in and placed a light kiss on my lips that shifted to my jaw and worked down my neck as his fingers fluttered over my breast.

When he rolled my nipple between his fingers, I moaned, the feeling of it almost too much for my brain to handle. “What are you doing to me?” I panted.

“Loving you until your brain can’t fight it any longer and you open up to us like a flower to the sun. Little bird, I will set your body free until you are floating among the clouds,” Jade whispered along my skin, his gaze holding mine as his mouth closed over the other bud.

I tossed my head back, unable to focus on anything but the pleasure that was exploding through my body and we’d only just begun. Eventually Jade moved lower, reaching my pants which he slowly undid and slid off my legs leaving me completely bare to him. “I want to feel you too,” I requested, lifting a hand to tug on his shirt. “Be naked with me.”

Jade grinned at that and quickly whipped off his shirt giving me the gift of staring at his chest that rippled with lean muscle under his mahogany skin. Quickly as he could he stepped back off the bed to shuck off his pants before returning to crawl over me kissing up my legs as he spread them wide. Soon he knelt in the open space leaving my center in full view but I wasn’t ashamed or fearful of what might happen next. Jade without fail will always have my wellbeing in mind first and foremost. To my surprise he laid his whole body on mine and rolled us to the side letting my leg hike up over his hip and he just trailed his fingers along my body kissing me in an intoxicating manner. We were so lost in each other I didn’t feel his fingers slip between us and stroke over my core making me moan into his mouth as he circled my nub. After reading one of the books Becka found in her room in the castle I might have experimented with some they kept talking about in how to pleasure yourself. What Jade was doing was far more electric than I was able to do for myself.

“Are you ready to fly, little bird?” Jade asked as he rolled me onto my back again.

Biting my lip I nodded my head unsure of what he was going to do next but I couldn’t wait to find out. My body hummed with energy that didn’t seem to have an outlet but my guess is that Jade knew just what I needed. Moving down my body he slid his hand under my ass and lifted me up slightly as he kissed my center, laving it with his tongue causing me to cry out in pleasure. “Oh God, whatever you’re doing don’t ever stop!”

He chuckled which caused vibrations that only added to the whole experience making me thrash as he held me tightly. Just when I felt like I was going to lose my mind I felt his teeth brush against the nub of pleasure as the book called it. A feeling like that seemed to match free falling in the sky overcame me suddenly and I moaned as my body tightened and my legs slammed shut but were stopped by Jade’s head. No matter how I begged Jade didn’t give up what he was doing to me until I lay there spent with sweat glistening on my skin and my chest heaving. Now I knew what women talked about when they said there was so much more to sex than what we learn. From the talks that May and Becka had with me I knew what Jade did wasn’t sex but felt just as good, it was the best way to experience pleasure without risking a child. Thankfully I’d started up taking my elixir that Alto made me to prevent that from happening—for now.

Jade came to lay beside me as my body calmed down enough for me to remember my own name. “That was amazing,” I whispered, turning my head to look at him, brushing my fingers along the side of his face. “Can I explore you next?”

Jade turned his head kissing my palm. “Only a fool would deny his queen her request,” he teased. “Do with me what you will, I am at your mercy.”

Rolling so I was lying alongside him I let my finger trace his muscles as I’ve longed to do since he took his shirt off. Curious if his nipples affected him the same way I circled them letting my fingernail scrape over the top of them. This pulled a groan from him, making me far too pleased with myself. What other sounds could I elicit from this man? Venturing lower, I was met with thick hair where his manhood met his body, but when I let my finger slide down his shaft, it was smooth and soft as silk. It bobbed at my touch seconds before Jade hissed, making me pull back my hand and look up at him.

“Trust me you aren’t hurting me at all. I’ve been waiting so long for this moment I’m not sure how long I will last under your undivided attention.”

Smiling at this I rolled on top of him and let my head rest over his heart letting it give me the courage to show him that I did love him and want everything he was offering to me. Sitting up I lifted myself off his body and straightened his cock for me to settle myself on. His hands rose to grip my hips drawing my attention back to his face.

“If you’re not ready for this, I am complete with what we’ve already done little bird. To see you shatter under my touch will live in my dreams forever until you want to make this choice,” Jade shared his eyes tender and full of love.

“I’m done hiding from my true feelings for you and the others, Jade. I love you to the very depths of my soul and I couldn’t think of a more perfect moment to wipe away any doubt you might have about my feelings,” I answered as I lowered myself onto him. I reached out and placed my hands on his chest as I breathed through the sharpness of him pushing past my barrier taking ownership of this moment for myself and the men I love. They were mine and I am theirs's damn those who would see this as improper they weren’t us.

The feeling of being full was new and strange but not unwelcome. Jade pulled me into a hug kissing my forehead as he let me adjust to him being inside me drinking in this moment of becoming one. Tucking a finger under my chin he lifted my face to his and kissed me, letting his other hand comb through my hair as he started to move. Everything about this moment was perfect and beautiful as if I’d been waiting all my life for Jade and my other guardians to help me trust my heart.