Now, he can’t even be around me, and that’s a type of pain that I never thought I would have to feel.
But one Las Vegas trip later…
Chapter thirty-six
Chapter 36: Tyler
“Ilove her, okay?”
Jackson and Marcus look over at me as soon as I burst into our suite, confused expressions filling their faces.
“What?” Jackson questions me as he stands from the couch.
I drag my hand through my hair as I walk over to them, my heart racing what feels like a hundred miles a minute. It’s ready to run right out of my chest, but it’s time to actually be honest.
We’re actually about to lose Cassidy.
“I love Cassidy, and it scares the shit out of me,” I tell them, my eyes flashing back and forth between them. “Tell me that I’m not the only one.”
“You’re not,” Marcus replies as he gets to his feet. He breathes in and crosses his arms. “Honestly, I’ve been in love with her since I was a teenager.”
My eyes grow wide. “Seriously?”
Marcus nods. “I didn’t say anything because…well…”
“Because of Ryan,” Jackson finishes. “A problem as old as time.”
“Not so much of a problem now that he’s already found out,” Marcus mutters.
I step closer to Jackson, knowing he’s hiding behind that damn wall that has surrounded him for years. “And you? How do you feel about her?”
Jackson shakes his head, his eyes avoiding mine. “It doesn’t matter.”
I plant my hand on his shoulder, forcing his gaze on mine. “Yes, it does. You’re right. I shouldn’t have been so distant. I should’ve spoken up. I’m trying to now, but I need you to be honest too.”
Jackson’s face hardens for a few seconds before he sighs. “Of course, I love her. How can someone not love her?”
I drop my hand from his shoulder, hope flaring up in my chest. Maybe we can fix this before it’s too late.
“It took me too long to realize how I felt about her,” I admit. “You know me. I’m the guy who doesn’t commit. Who avoids relationships like the plague.”
“And I’m pretty much married to my work,” Jackson says.
“And what has that done for us?” I question him.
Jackson frowns. “Made us lonely, miserable bastards.”
Well, that’s one way to put it.
“I don’t want to be that person anymore,” I tell both of them. “I want to be with her. I want to raise the baby with her.”
“I think we all want to do that,” Marcus comments. “How do we even go about that? Is that possible?”
“I don’t know, but it’s down to her and what she’s comfortable with,” Jackson replies. “If she wants all of us, I’m fine with her having all of us.”
“I’m not going to be selfish,” I say. It’s not like these guys are strangers. They’re my brothers, and I’d only trust them and no one else to take care of Cassidy if she didn’t want to be with me. “I want her to be happy. No matter what that means.”
“Tyler, you were just freaking out about things. Did something change to bring this about?” Marcus asks me, his brows furrowing.