The soft click of a keyboard reaches me before I get there. Casting a pale gold halo over her light brown hair, the only light in the room is the lamp on the desk she’s working on.
Her shoulders tense, but she doesn’t look up when I walk in.
In sleep leggings and an oversized shirt that covers enough to satisfy most nuns, her fingers move fast over the keys. The outfit seems familiar and then I remember.
The third and last time she ever safe worded with me. She’d worn the same kind of clothes to sleep in.
Armor.
Shite.
“Hello, a stór.” Loosening my tie, I toe off my shoes. “What are you working on?”
“Hey,” she says without turning. “How was your dinner?”
Not cold, but not warm either. A shade of polite she uses with people outside her inner circle.
And I don’t like it turned on me.
I shrug out of my suit jacket and pull off my tie, tossing it on the bed with an idea for using it later. “Productive.”
Kara makes a noncommittal sound in response.
I walk over to her and leaning down with one hand on the back of her chair, I lower my voice in invitation. “You didn’t tell me what you’re working on.”
“Does it matter?”
Her unwillingness to answer pulls me up short. It’s not like her.
Is she working on something for school? Maybe Kara doesn’t want to tell me since I supposedly don’t know about her secretly attending a university with an online program.
“Is this something you have to finish right now?” I ask.
Her hands still on the keyboard. “It’s something I’m going to finish right now.”
Which is not the same thing. She’s choosing to prioritize whatever she’s working on over our time together.
That’s not something Kara does.
We both treat these nighttime hours of privacy together as important.
Unless it’s a bleedin’ emergency, I come home to Kara before midnight every night. And she is always here, ready to welcome me when I wake her.
I frown, trying to figure out what’s going through my sweet wife’s brain. “Is this a late-night study session? Have you got a big test coming up or something?”
She was still before. Now, she’s frozen into immobility. “You know.”
“About you going to college? Yes.”
“How long?” she asks in a whisper.
“Since the beginning. There’s nothing about you that I don’t know.”
She makes a sound of disbelief.
I shake my head. She doubts me? “I followed you.”
“When?”