I glanced over at the setup. The phone on the tripod. The ring light. A timeless version of ourselves on screen tangled together, sweating and swearing as we chased our orgasms. Then I looked at Jax and Asher, who reminded me of a koala bear the way he clung to Jax.
“Fuck the camera,” I said, motioning for Jax to start walking.
“But your rules,” Asher piped up, unable to keep the confusion or the excitement out of his tone.
“Rules were meant to be broken.” I didn’t want to be Blue the porn star today. Today I wanted to be Blue the guy who had sex with two gorgeous men who seemed like they might be able to give a real, actual shit about him.
“Are you sure?” Jax asked, the tone in his voice sounding suspiciously like hope.
Hell no, I wasn’t sure. I had rules to keep myself from getting too invested in the wrong people. I had rules because, growing up, I was used to hearing what a soft little bleeding heart I was and how I had to toughen up so people didn’t use that against me. I liked to pretend that I was over all of that shit, but if I was, I wouldn’t hear their voices in my head anymore.
Instead of giving a verbal answer, I walked past Jax and Asher, brushing my hand over Jax’s ass as I did so.
When I was at the bedroom door, I paused and looked back at them over my shoulder. “Are you coming?”
Jax moved so fast, Asher let out a yelp of surprise and clung to him even harder before bursting out laughing.
“Someone’s eager,” Asher gently ribbed Jax, who looked at me with fire in his eyes. It wasn’t the first time I’d seen him look at me like that, but it was the first time I let myself want it to be something more than lust.
EIGHTEEN
ASHER
Today had beentwelve kinds of shit, and the sudden turnaround had me wondering if I was awake or dreaming. It wasn’t a surprise that Jax and Blue showed up at my door. But this was.
Blue followed Jax and me into my room where Jax tossed me onto my unmade bed like I weighed nothing. Fuck, that was hot. Reaching down, I practically tore my pants open.
“There’s no rush,” Blue said as he knelt on the bed next to me. His hands were warm and soft as they stilled mine and guided them away. “Take a breath.”
Of course I did what Blue said. I’d do anything he told me to do. The rush of air into my lungs made me feel about a thousand percent more calm. Blue’s thumbs sweeping across the pulse points on my wrists might have also helped. But to prove that I wasn’t the only impatient one in the room, Jax grabbed my pants and tugged them down to my knees. I scissored my legs, tryingto kick my pants down the rest of the way so they didn’t sit like shackles.
Jax laughed as he tugged them all the way off. “What are we going to do with him?” he asked Blue like my opinion didn’t matter.
Maybe it didn’t. And holy fuck, the way my cock twitched, I don’t think it cared that Jax wasn’t asking for my input. In fact, I think it preferred to be left out of the decision-making process. My dick was probably tired of me making bad ones. Hell, the rest of me sure was.
Blue dragged his hands down my arms, which remained above my head where he put them. “We have so many options. Do you want his mouth?”
Blue skated a thumb across my lips and I chased it with my tongue. I wanted someone to have my mouth. My head had been full of so many things like the shame of what I’d said to Sawyer and how I treated him, all the things I learned about in Lukas’s book, and all the ways I missed having Leo around.
God, I was fucking tired of my own head and all the bullshit I couldn’t get away from. It was as easy as breathing to hand myself over to Jax and Blue. Two people who’d never hurt me. Two people I had no business getting between, but I was addicted to the way they looked at me and each other. It was clear that Jax and Blue had feelings for each other. Any idiot with eyes could see that. But, for whatever reason, they’d never made a move, and if they needed someone in the middle until they got their shit sorted out… well, I’d happily oblige.
Would the fallout be nuclear-level messy for me? Oh, most definitely, but it was hard to care about that when you had someone as hot as Jax lean forward and lick your cock. His mouth no sooner made contact when Blue decided to join in, and suddenly there was a mouth on my cock and a mouth on mychest, a slippery tongue laving my nipple. Teeth scraped across flesh and I fucking moaned.
Jesus Christ, I couldn’t fucking move or reciprocate in any way. They’d rendered me incapable of doing anything but lying there and taking it. Jax spread my legs apart and settled in between them. He explored my body with his mouth, licking and sucking and kissing me all over. His hands were magic too, turning my body into mush and my cock into stone.
Blue, not to be outdone, kissed and sucked my nipples until they were two aching peaks. Every touch made me whimper, or moan, or whine. Blue dragged sounds out of me that I didn’t know I could make, and if it weren’t for the hand that Jax had wrapped around the base of my cock and his uncanny ability to know when I was getting close, I’d have come just from Blue playing with my tits.
That was new.
And I didn’t want him to stop, but then his mouth trailed lower. Down my chest. Down my stomach. A series of kisses met my belly button, then went lower. I finally put my arms down so I could prop myself up on my elbows and watch the action. Jax took me in his mouth as Blue mouthed the base of my cock. Licking and tasting, he dragged his mouth upward until he met Jax’s. It was easy for him to coax Jax to release my cock and kiss him instead, and I watched, mesmerized as their tongues tangled together.
Just when I didn’t think things could get any sexier, they included my dick in their kiss, wrapping their tongues around it, licking at the head as they kissed, my cock trapped in between.
Trapped wasn’t the right word because it implied that I didn’t want it to be there, but with the two brain cells they’d left me with, it was the best I could do.
“You’re going to make me come,” I warned, my voice kind of squeaky and not sounding entirely like my own.
Jax glanced up at me, and I’d never seen him look more devious than he did in that moment with his sharp smile and his predatory eyes.
