“Yeah, but it’s different. You know that,” I sighed. “I’m not trying to change my life for either of you.”
“Who said anything about changing your life?” Avery asked.
“I mean, it’s impossible not to,” I quipped. “Look at you, Mateo, and Levi. You’ve changed so many things.”
“I mean, sure. But it’s all things we want. I don’t see anything wrong with it.”
“There’s nothing wrong, I just . . . I don’t know. It scares me. The idea of being in a relationship with someone where I have to change scares me.”
“Hold on.” Evie stabbed a fork into a meatball and pointed it at me. “Your excuse this time is because you’re afraid you’ll have to change your life? When we all know that’s not what this is about at all?”
“I don’t like being on this end of things,” I muttered. “Both of you are being rude.”
“Well, we love you. We will support whatever you choose. But you should talk to Madi. And Dallas. Talk to them about howyou’re feeling,” Avery pleaded. “I know she’s doing an interview for that one job. The one in San Francisco, right? She was talking about it yesterday, but I don’t really think she wants it.”
What?
My mouth felt dry. “What interview?”
Avery’s face dropped. She squirmed in her seat. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have told you that. I assumed Madi told you and Dallas.”
My ears were ringing as I did my best not to let everything cave in. “Well, what is it for?”
“I really shouldn’t,” Avery said, wincing. “I’m sorry. She told me that in confidence. It’s just an interview. I think she may stay, June. You should really just talk to her.”
And talk to her about what? I forced myself to nod, but I was already spiraling on the inside.
An interview for a job in San Francisco.
I mean, of course she needed to have something lined up. She was leaving in just eight days. Just over a week from now, she’d be on her way back to California, and I’d be here—back to avoiding Dallas.
God, what had I done?
“June.” Evie’s voice was sharp. “You really just need to be honest with them. If you’re falling in love, you need to express that. We live in a modern world. Long distance relationships exist?—”
“I’m not,” I said firmly.I liedfirmly. “I’m not. This was just an agreement. A sex agreement so all three of us can get fucked for a little bit. You know you take what you can get in a town this size.”
“It’s been more than that though,” Evie said softly.
“It’s just been sex,” I insisted. “That’s it. Primal, hot, kinky sex.”
Avery made a face, but then recovered. “If she leaves, what about you and Dallas?”
“We’ll just go back to being friends.”
She scowled at me. “Really?”
“What?”
“I’ve known you my entire life, and there’s no possible fucking way you’re going to justgo backto being friends with him,” she said.
“Are you mad because he’s your?—”
“No,” she snapped. “I’m mad because you’re being an idiot.”
I glowered as she got up and went to the kitchen. Evie sighed next to me, her lips pressing into a thin line.
“You agree with her,” I mumbled. “Clearly.”
