Day Three
I woke up at 2 AM drenched in sweat.
My heart was pounding, my mind racing, my body convinced something was wrong even though I had no evidence to support that.
I reached for my phone.
The screen lit up the dark room, harsh and blue.
I typed:early pregnancy symptoms before missed period
The results were maddeningly vague.
Fatigue, nausea, breast tenderness, mild cramping, mood swings.
I had all of those.
But I’d also had all of those during the hormone injections.
So, what did it mean?
I clicked on a forum thread titledDID YOU KNOW BEFORE YOUR BLOOD TEST?
Scrolled through hundreds of responses.
I just knew. I felt different.
I had no symptoms at all and still got a positive.
I was convinced it worked and then it didn’t.
I was convinced it failed and then it worked.
I closed the app.
Opened it again five minutes later.
Typed:implantation cramping vs period cramping
Read for another hour.
Learned nothing useful.
By the time the sun came up, I was exhausted and wired and no closer to knowing whether the embryo had implanted or not.
Day Four
Mama caught me in the kitchen staring at my phone.
“What you looking at?” she asked, pouring herself a cup of coffee.
“Nothing,” I said too quickly.
She raised an eyebrow.
“Mm-hmm.”
She sat at the table across from me, her eyes sharp and knowing.
