“In a word, it was impossible for me to separate her, in the past or in the present, from the innermost life of my life.”
? Charles Dickens,Great Expectations
August 8, 1992
Sixteen Years Old
Log 08/08/1992—
Interview with Dr. Helen Durgin. Subject “D” appears aggravated but in control of his emotional state.
Audio/video recording.
“I want to see her.”
“You know the drill. You do as we ask, then you get to see her. That’s the rule.”
“Another phone call?”
“Another phone call.”
“Phone calls can be traced, Doc. Maybe you should take me there this time.”
“You know we can’t do that.”
“Then bring the person here. Let me see their face when I do it. Is it a man or a woman this time?”
“Does that matter?”
“No, just curious.”
“A man.”
“Why him? What did he do?”
The doctor said nothing.
“And after, you’ll let me see her again?”
“That’s the rule.”
“How long?”
“One hour.”
“I want two.”
“One hour, and if you push again, I’ll see that she is only here for thirty minutes. Maybe less.”
“Sorry, Doc.”
“Doctor Durgin.”
“Sorry, Doctor Durgin. It’s just, I don’t get to see anyone. Only you and her. I look forward to her visits.”
“But not mine?”
“You know what I mean.”
