Just the other day I was telling her how much I liked him, how special he made me feel. This just gets worse and worse.
“What? You talked to her about us?” Killian finally seems to catch on to the absolute shitshow this is.
“Yes! She’s my best friend. I told her about the amazing sex, the fantastic date, the way you make me feel. To her! I’m a horrible person. That’s all there is to this.”
“When did you talk to her?”
Too many times, that’s for sure. She’s going to kill me. I may give her the tools to do it. I mean, talk about a betrayal of friendship. It’s not her ex, but it’s her damn dad.
Sure, she doesn’t know him all that well, and she’s never told me his name. I had asked once but she was so distraught and she just kept saying it didn’t matter, so I didn’t know, but still.
I’m going to throw up.
Killian looks to me, waiting for an answer to his question.
Not that it matters.
“The first time was when I went to see her. Remember that Saturday after your Ultimate Frisbee thing? I drove out to see my best friend from college. That’s Meredith, and she was the one who said I should throw caution to the wind and give in. Well, I bet she didn’t anticipatethisoutcome.”
Lord knows I didn’t.
“Tessa, we don’t have to say anything to Meredith. She and I…we don’t even really know each other. She has her father. Yes, I’m her biological father and sure, it’s a little weird, but what we’re doing has nothing to do with her.”
I stop moving.
No more pacing.
No, I’m just staring at him.
Wondering what in the hell he’s thinking.
I wait for him to come to his senses.
He doesn’t.
I stare, blinking several times. “You’re kidding, right? I can’t lie to her. She’s like one of the only friends I have.” I throw the pillow at him, maybe it’ll knock some sense into him. “We have to tell her! We can’t keep it from her, and we’re not doing it again anyway…”
“And what are you going to tell her?” Killian asks, his voice full of frustration.
I throw my hands up and realize I’m fucking naked.
I groan, grabbing the pillow again and sitting on the edge of the bed. This is truly the worst freaking thing. I can’t believe that he’s her dad. Sure, he’s not like close with her, but still, that’s not going to matter and there’s no way I can keep this from her.
She would never forgive me and I would never forgive myself.
So, there’s only one thing I can tell her…
“The truth,” I say with a long sigh. “I can’t believe this is happening.”
“I don’t think you should make any decisions tonight.”
Killian watches me, his beautiful green eyes filled with so much emotion. I can see him grappling with all of this, and suddenly, I realize that this isn’t just about me.
“Oh God, I’m so sorry. This is going to…she’s going to be upset with you too.”
He shakes his head, moving toward me, but I pull back. Killian freezes, closing his eyes and then exhaling deeply. “I’m not worried about Meredith. Not right now. I’m worried about you, about us.”
My heart literally aches at that.
