“Exactly!” He snarls, and I can feel his chest rising and his heart beats faster.
“Well, I think He was with her. I don’t think He left her side, Sam. I don’t know why this happened. Why this evil shit happens without divine intervention? All I know is there’s an answer for us all in the end. Maybe, God felt selfish and wanted her perfect presence with Him. Maybe, He needed her so there was someone watching over you and Deja. Maybe, it was nothing more than this Levi dick-wad being given a final chance at redemption. I don’t have the answers, Sam, but I do have faith,” I look at him, see the tears filling his eyes. “God isn’t evil, babe. God didn’t do this, Levi did.”
He blinks and his tears fall, breaking my heart. I hope I didn’t offend him with what I believe. I was raised in a God-fearing home and it instilled a spiritual belief in me at a young age.
“I hope you are right, Pet. I hope he was with her,” he looks at me, a sad smile.
I nod, desperate to reassure him. “I have no doubt in that, Sam.”
He cries. Soft sobs rack his body as he holds me tight to his chest. I can’t help but cry with him, for him…for her.
“Don’t let me push you away, Mya,” he cries, and I am thrown by his words. “Stay as pushy and defiant as you always are. Don’t let me push you away.
“Sssh,” I soothe him, and place a kiss to his chest. “I promise.”
“I think I am falling in love with you, Mya,” he whispers, and I squeeze my eyes shut as more tears fall.
“I feel the same way for you, Sam. I won’t let you chuck me to the side, I promise.”
He kisses the top of my head and holds me close to him as he cries. I lay there on his chest until his tears stop and his breathing evens out. I lift to see he has finally fallen asleep. I sit up to pull the blankets over us both before leaning in and kissing him as gentle as ever.
“I won’t let you destroy us,” I whisper, before curling into his side and falling asleep.
