He signs just as fast, half speaking and half signing. It happens sometimes when emotions are high. "Now!" He says sternly without signing, knowing Axe knows he is serious.
Axe storms off up to his room and leaves us to figure out who body snatched our kid.
"What the fuck was that?" Cal asks.
"He woke up upset. He was asking where you were and started the minute I turned the light on." I explain the attitude with my phone and with breakfast before the meltdown.
"He is mad that he can’t come to the show. He thinks this is like the small ones we do on talk shows or radio when I let him tag along. He has only ever watched me play in small venues and so when we spoke of this one as small and intimate he thought we were leaving him out."
I get it, easy enough, but I cannot stand how he spoke to me. "And calling me a liar and dumb?" I ask, mad I think for the first time ever at my son.
"Unacceptable, obviously and he called me the same. I told him he would stay grounded for the day and that he would get another day if he kept it up and didn’t apologize."
"Where did he learn it though?" I ask, mind blown he would say that shit.
"He is a kid. He isn’t immune to things he sees or learns that aren’t positive. The world is imperfect as are the people in it, including Axe. He thinks we are dumb for not letting him come and feels left out. He has been informed its bullshit and that how he is acting isn’t going to be tolerated. Now, let him sweat it out. If he digs his heels in he knows he will be grounded tomorrow. Everything else we can talk to his therapist about Monday."
I sigh but have no idea what to say.
"Firefly, you’re a good mom and did what I would do. Don’t sweat it." He says and I feel it then and there... I trust that he didn’t ask for yesterday.
"Okay, Caly." I say and hear a soft groan and see him close his eyes.
"Look, I gotta get back to work, but I love that Caly shit. I guarantee you'll be screaming it by the time we are home tonight baby."
He drops the call on purpose so I am left to think on that all day. I am glad I called him though. I needed that reassurance as a mother that I was doing the right thing. Even in my strongest moments I question if I am doing right by him... then I think of Cal and what a phenomenal dad he is and know that my partner in this couldn’t have been a better accidental choice.
