He nods, still apologetic and asks me something I never expected. "Do you blame yourself with this Jenny shit?"
"That is a loaded question... I blame myself for how she became that girl on the bus and even when we were small town. I hand fed her the life she was in no way prepared to survive. I used her, degraded her then blamed her for Axe's misgivings. Hell, his hearing loss and why he got those tubes is because he had fluid in his ears. Why he wears glasses is from my genetic pool for bad eye site. Its why we all wear contacts now, but I had glasses at his age too. His motor skills and the cognitive delay was neglect yeah, but in the light sense of the word. She worked a ton and had a shitty sitter who she filed reports on when she saw how he was treated."
"Okay, but the drugs and partying?" He asks, and yeah, I know.
"Total fail on her part. Absolutely, but look at the shit Noah pulled when he was using and fucking up cutting everyone out. You saw it more than anyone did and you are still his closest confidant and ally. We all love him, forgave him. I battle this shit all the time man, all the time. But, honestly, Shame I have forgiven her because she has redeemed herself tenfold."
"I agree, I just don’t want this shit resting on you again. You went through hell for Tay and she broke a part of you, but I think you are a better man for it honestly. I just don’t want you doing anything where the risk outweighs the reward."
"This feeling I have..." I look at him square in the eye because I need his support and reasoning now more than ever.
"Yeah?"
"It is far more intense than anything I ever felt with Tay. There’s this need that makes me insane. I feel like I am obsessed. Unlike when Tay had me believing she was dating Sully to make me jealous, Jen is actually dating that blue haired dude from the Pit. Actually, dating and she told me point blank that she wants him, the idea of him or some shit, but that I don’t deserve her."
He is silent, most likely processing what I just unloaded.
"I'm crazy for her. Hand to God obsessed."
