A soft moan escapes her throat as I deepen the kiss, tangling my tongue with hers. When I press myself tighter against her, making sure she more than feels how hard I am for her, she grinds back.
Growling into her mouth, I slide my hands down to cup her ass and lift. When she wraps her legs around my waist, I pin her against the wall and grind against her core, rejoicing in her gasp when I hit just the right spot.
“Jax,” she whispers against my lips. “I?—”
Both of us are breathing hard as rest my forehead against hers, our lips so close I can feel her breath warring with mine.
“I know,” I groan. Reluctantly, I pull back just enough to look at her. Cheeks flushed, her eyes are still dark with hunger. “I just needed... fuck.” I shake my head. “I don’t know.”
My heart is hammering so hard, I wouldn’t be surprised if she can feel it.
“I’ve been going crazy these past few days. Having you so close but not being able to touch you,” I rasp. “I miss you.” My next words slip out before I can think. “I miss us.”
She shifts, and I let her go, taking a step back as her feet touch thefloor.
“You can’t tell me you didn’t feel that just now.”
“Jax…”
But I don’t let her finish. I can’t. Deep down, I’m too scared about what I’m sure she’s going to say.
“Think about it. Really think about it, okay? And when you’re done thinking about it, I’ll be here. Waiting. However long it takes.”
And with those words, I turn and stride out of her office, chest so tight with emotion I can barely breathe.
forty-six
After Jax leaves,I sag against the wall, heart racing, lips still tingling from his kiss as his words echo in my head.
“I’ll be here. Waiting. However long it takes.”
God, what am I doing? Why the hell am I fighting this so hard?
With a deep breath, I smooth my hands over my thighs and run my fingers through my hair before I leave my office and head to the front of the studio to see Noia bent over at the waist stretching her calves.
As if sensing my presence, she straightens, giving me a look that speaks volumes. With one eyebrow arched and amusement dancing in her eyes, the grin playing on her lips makes me want to throttle her. In a loving way, of course.
“Could you not rub your ‘I told you so about Jax’ face in my face?” I grumble, making my way over to the section we’ve set up with padded mats for stretching after a class.
“Why?” She has the gall to snicker. “I’m sure it’s not the only thing of his that’s been rubbed in your face.”
Letting out a screech, I grab my best friend by the waist, hook my foot behind her ankle, and take her down to the mat.
Straddling her, I immediately dig my fingers into her ribs, making her squeal with laughter. “Take it back, you bitch,” I growl playfully.
“Never!”
Finally, I relent, rolling away to lie beside her and stare up at the ceiling. The studio is quiet now that everyone has left. Even Reyna has disappeared into the back room to organize equipment.
“I don’t know what to do,” I admit quietly. “Being with Jax is...”
“The best sex you’ve ever had?” Noia offers helpfully.
My arm flops, smacking the back of my hand on her stomach, making me grin with glee when she lets out an‘oof!’
After catching her breath, Noia chuckles, “Ignoring what your pussy is saying…” I bark out a laugh, and her voice turns serious. “What is your heart telling you?”
I sigh. My emotions feel like a heavy weight pressing down on my entire body. “That I should give him a chance.”
