THIRTEEN
KENEDI
The entire ride home,I thought about how I had been so foolish behind Sincere. I truly thought he was different, but all he did was play in my face. Even if there was nothing going on with Logan, it was clear that she’d never not be a problem for us, and I didn’t want to deal with that bitch for the rest of my life.
The rest of my life?That was the part that hurt the most. I was sure that Sincere was the one for me. Even though I thought Ray was the one for me, I knew once I started falling for Sincere that I was with Ray more so out of obligation and the constant ticking of my biological clock. He was the logical and best choice for me then. But Sincere was the one I chose. The one I wanted. And unfortunately, it didn’t seem like this was going to work out for me either. I honestly didn’t think it was worth trying anymore for me. I was over love!
“I’m going to let you go now so that you can calm down, but we’re going to talk about this, Kenedi. I promise it’s not what it looks like,” he said, reaching over and grabbing my hand.
Everything in his eyes told me that he was telling me the truth, but I knew what I saw. And again, even if it weren’t true and things truly did go down the way he said, I didn’t want todeal with that for the rest of my life. I couldn’t do that to myself. And it seemed as though, regardless of the power and control that Sincere had, Logan was the one thing he couldn’t control.
“I already told you that we’re done, and I’m done, Sincere. I’ll see you at work tomorrow, boss,” I said, pulling my hand back and walking toward the house.
Thankfully, I held my composure until I was inside and shut the door behind me. The moment the locks clicked, the tears began falling down my face. I couldn’t hold it in any longer and needed to get a good cry out. I knew Sincere was the one I truly loved because he was the first man I shed tears over. The only tears that fell in regard to Ray were anger and disappointment in myself for letting his trifling ass get me to the point where I’d fucked up my entire life behind his actions.
“What’s going on, baby girl?” My father asked, coming up to me and pulling me into a hug.
“Sincere and I broke up, Daddy,” I said, burying my head into his chest.
“I see. Well, if it’s meant to be, you two will figure it out.”
“I don’t think so, Daddy. It just hurts because I thought he was the one. Like truly the one for me. But he turned out to be just like the rest of them.”
“I don’t know, baby girl. I had a different vibe from that one. I’m not saying take him back if he did you wrong. But I will say that if you truly think he’s the one, make sure you have all your ducks in a row when you make that final decision, okay?”
“Okay, thank you, Daddy.”
I heard what my father was saying, but I was done. I didn’t mind fighting for my relationship, but I was tired of fighting with other people over it. I didn’t deserve to share my man with anybody else, and I wasn’t going to settle for that.
Realizing that I needed to shower and get in bed so that I could get to work on time, I pulled myself from the door andmade my way up the stairs. I took my time showering and dressing because I felt like it would make the night last longer. I wasn’t ready to go to work tomorrow and have to see Sincere. I truly wondered how long we would last working together now that we were broken up. I had a feeling I would be looking for new employment soon. Thankfully, I was in a totally different position and wouldn’t struggle as much as I did the first time.
Pulling my buzzing phone from the nightstand, I lifted my eye mask and opened Sincere's message. I didn’t want to read it, but curiosity wouldn’t let me put the phone back down. I wanted to hear what he had to say, even if I wouldn’t believe him. The emotions I was feeling were crazy as hell, and I’d yet to make sense of any of them.
SINCERE:
I’m not letting up on you, Kenedi. I’m going to take care of it, and we’re going to be right back where we were. I love you, ma. Goodnight.
I chose not to respond to him because I didn’t need to say what I’d already said earlier. Instead, I put my phone back on the nightstand, pulled down my mask, and rolled over. The only thing I could do moving forward was pray that we could be cordial with each other at work.
The next morning, I drug myself into the office. It took a lot more coffee for me to get up and go than usual. I typically liked to drink water beforehand, but since I needed a drink, coffee was the closest thing I could get to it. Thankfully, I managed to make it into the building and to my office without running into Sincere. We had a meeting today, so completely avoiding him wasn’t possible, but at least I could do it for a little while longer.
Today, he wanted to know what the promo plan would be for debuting Kru and Lyric as a couple. I thought the entire planbehind the two of them was so beautiful. I also had a feeling that sparks would fly between the two of them, and they might end up making something more than music. Nobody believed me, but I knew what I saw when I looked at both of them. Only time would tell, though.
As I busied myself with work, I was shocked when the notification popped up that I needed to head to Sincere’s office to get the meeting over with. It was only going to be the two of us, and while I would’ve normally been looking forward to the time alone with him, I wanted anything but that at the moment. However, I still had to do my job, and he was still my boss.
“Good morning,” I said, walking into his office and taking a seat at the conference table he had in there. Sitting on the opposite side of where I knew he sat, I placed my things down and waited for him to make his way over there, too.
“Morning. How did you sleep last night?” He asked, shutting the office door and coming to the table. He sat right next to me, which I knew he was only doing to get under my skin. He never sat anywhere but in his chair.
“Uh, I slept well. How about you?” I regretted the question the moment it left my damn lips.
“I would’ve slept a lot better if you were lying next to me,” he said, spinning my chair around so that I was facing him. Pulling me closer, my legs brush against his dick, and I pulled myself back. I wasn’t going there with him.
“Well, I’m sorry to hear that. Can we get started? I have other pressing matters that I need to handle today,” I said, attempting to pull away from him, but he held my chair right where he wanted me to be.
“Really, Kenedi? This is what we’re going to do. You’re just giving up on us without even letting me explain myself.”
Sighing, I looked at him, “It’s not just that, Sincere. Whether what you said happened or not, it still shouldn’t have happened.I’ve accepted the fact that no matter what you do, Logan will always be a problem. A problem that I don’t want to deal with, honestly. So, it’s best for us to cut ties before we get in too deep.”
