“Because, Sparkle Daddy... I didn’t think of it.”Sparkle Daddy?Noah sighs, looking at me. “Which do you prefer?”
“Neither.”
“Bakery Booty it is, then.” Noah pops one of the tiramisu truffles into his mouth. “So, spill. What’s the tea? Whose penis is making you bake your heart out? Ah, I get it now.Bananabread. Got it! So, who’s banana is making you sad?” Noah sips the iced coffee I made him.
I think about what to tell them and end up telling them everything.
From the late-night drives to me being sick, then to all the moments in between. Then I tell them about the other night when we kissed on top of his car, and for the first time in months I feel every worry, stress, and fear I’ve had melt away.
“I can’t stop thinking about him.” And that’s a problem, because Aiden doesn’t want a relationship and I don’t want justsex. I look up at the wide eyes watching me. “I just said that out loud, didn’t I?” Bri, Bo, and Noah nod shortly.
“Sawyer.” I turn my eyes to Janey and don’t want to deal with it.
“I know.” I hate it. I know she’s right. She knows me better than anyone. Which makes bullshitting my way out of this impossible. “Spare me the lecture, please.”
She rounds the counter, looping her arm around me. “I’m not judging you.”
“Am I missing something?” Noah asks.
“I get really attached. More attached than the person I like most of the time. I can’t help it, but this is different.” I just don’t know how. As soon as he kissed me it’s like this whole world opened.
I saw it in his eyes when I pulled back.
Jane’s arm slips off me.
“It was—” I can’t.
“It was what?” Noah asks. “Come on, don’t leave me hanging.”
“It was more intimate and personal than anything I’ve ever experienced.” I swallow. “He just...” I smile. “I don’t know... he clung to me. Held on to me. It felt like this little moment just for the both of us.” The way his hands felt on me, his chest rising and falling. “Then he brought me back here.”
Maybe I’m looking into it too much. I do this every time. “I like him.” I liked him from the moment he and Koda came into the bakery. I felt it then. “That kiss...” I’ve never felt a kiss like that. Ever.
Brianna comes around, joining Jane on my other side and hugging me.
“I’m really sorry,” Bo says. He’s eating the gluten free cinnamon-roll cookies I made when I knew he was coming over with them.
“Are they good?” I ask about the cookies.
“I actually really hate cinnamon.”Oh shit. “But honestly, these taste amazing.” He takes another bite. “I already know the answer, but I’ll ask anyway. Have you talked to him?”
I look at Bo. “No.”
“Not that I have any room to talk, but hiding your feelings will only make it worse. Sometimes I think if I’d been more honest with Cam, we would have had this sooner.” He takes a bite. “Then again, maybe not. Maybe he wasn’t ready until he was.”
“Maybe.” The thought of telling Aiden all of this is terrifying.
Through my friends talking, I notice one person who’s unnaturally quiet.
I watch Noah, who I’d expect to be bouncing in his seat. Instead he’s playing with the metal straw in his cup. “What? No balloons? Streamers? Not going to ask me if he was hard or how big he felt?” I laugh.
So hard. So, so fucking hard.
Noah smirks a little, taking a sip of his iced coffee, then shrugs. “You don’t seem happy about it. You seem sad.”
I blink at him, so confused.
“I get it. I am a damn delight. Sex positive. Fun. Incredibly gorgeous. Funny. Intellige?—”
