“Well, good to know he lies to you.”
Rolling his eyes, Cam pulls out a stool from the corner and sits down. “What’s up?”
“It’s nothing.”
“Try again.”
I sigh. “Fine!” I’m not getting out of this, am I? “It may or may not have to do with Sawyer.” My cheeks burn but I keep talking. “Something happened.”
“Sawyer?” He grins. “Good. He looks at you like you’re the last folded chip in the bag.”
“What the hell are you talking about?”
“Folded chips are the best chips.”
“I’m leaving.”
“Dude, he’s into you. But I think you already know that. What’s the big deal? Ask him out.”
“It’s not that easy.”
“Why?” I steady myself. “Sawyer could use some lovin’. That is one stressed-out man.”
I look beyond Cam, staring at the wall as I speak. “You don’t get it.”
“Look, you’ve been coming here for a bit now. You’re clearly a dude with some shit going on, but what’s the problem? You clearly like him, or you wouldn’t have been beating the shit out of a punching bag for the last hour and growling at anyone who came down here to use it.”
“There are things he doesn’t know about me,” I say quietly, deciding how much I should actually tell him. “Shit, I can’t explain yet. If he finds out—” I look away, swallowing hard. “And I don’t growl!”
“You literally growled that.”
“I’m going to hit you again.”
Cam’s brows turn up. “Aiden?—”
I shake my head. “I can handle him not wanting me, not being interested. I’m used to being alone. I’m used to that. What I couldn’t handle would be him wanting me now and then changing his mind when he truly knows me.” My eyes widen with my confession.
Shit.
“Wow,” Cam says. “That’s heavy.”
I exhale shakily, leaning against the ropes. “I like him so much,” I admit. “And I hate it.”
Cam smiles. “I hear you.” He laughs. “I’ve been there, and if I’m not wrong, you called me stupid.”
“I didn’t call you stupid. I meant the idea of a relationship was stupid.” And it is. The dumbest shit ever. “I just... may understand now.”
“Uh-huh. And how much have you understood with Sawyer?” He grins maniacally. God he’s a demon.
The truth springs to my lips and I almost catch it. But instead of holding it back, I let it fly. “Something happened to me. Sawyer helped me out. I stayed with him. And I... I mean we slept together.”
His eyes go comically wide. “Wow. That’s a big deal. How do you feel?”
Like I’m never going to get who I was before that back. I left a piece of me in his apartment that night with him. “Awful.”
Cam nods. “Been there.”
“Incredible.”
