I turned onto my side so I could look into his eyes and reached up to rub his arm. “Babe, we don’t have to do anything you’re not comfortable with. We can wait and get condoms. I just . . .”
“Just what?”
“I don’t want to wait, and I don’t want a condom between you and me. I don’t want anything between us, not now, not ever. Maybe I’m an idiot for that, but I’m your idiot.”
Jacks blinked down at me, his eyes a swirl of thoughts and emotions I struggled to read.
“I want this, too, Sky. I really do.”
I squeezed his arm. “Then take me, make me yours for real.”
He stared a moment, then something resolved in his eyes and he nodded once. “Roll onto your back then. It’ll be easier your first time that way.”
I flipped so fast my foot kicked him in the shoulder.
He chuckled and leaned down to kiss me.
“Bruise me and I’ll make you pay.”
Settled on my back, Jacks gripped my legs andset them atop his shoulders. It was awkward at first, looking up at a muscled, naked man whose curls fell across his forehead, but this was Jacks—my Jacks—and I would give him anything he asked.
I watched him squirt lube onto his palm, then rub his hands together. Once his fingers were slicked again, he reached down and slipped one inside me. I clenched hard again.
His smile made me relax.
Then a second finger went in.
I had to fight the clench.
He stroked inside me like that a few times before reaching down and gripping my cock with his other hand, slicking my shaft and swirling his palm against my tip. A jolt of pleasure rocked through me as his fingers hit that spot again, while his palm teased my sensitive head.
“Jesus,” I breathed.
His fingers slipped out.
My eyes were shut, but I heard him squirt a little more lube and felt him stroking himself, getting his cock hard again.
The moment his head touched my hole, I felt my world tilt.
This was it.
This was the moment.
There would be no going back after this. Not now. Not ever.
His head slipped inside me. I felt the rim catch then pop free.
“Oh, wow. That feels . . . that’s not what I thought it would feel like,” I said.
He didn’t move. Only his head cocked.
“Sorry, keep going. It’s all so new, ya know?”
Jacks leaned down and kissed me, and all my fears and worries and angst evaporated.
“I love you, Sky,” he whispered into my lips.
My face split into the biggest grin ever. “I love you, Jacks, so fucking much.”
