I also didn’t want to shockmyself.
We hadn’t really labeled what we were. I’d blamed it on the new passion high, my high years in the making and probably in a different stratosphere from Lee’s, but we needed to talk about what we were doing other than having a lot of amazing sex.
This was the chance I’d always wanted with Lee and, as I’d told my brother, one I couldn’t pass up. But I was almost afraid to acknowledge what we were doing, as if saying it out loud would bring it to a stop.
“Girlfriend, huh?” I said, trying to come off playful as my pulse kicked up.
“Yeah,” Lee said, his blue eyes narrowing at me. “Did you really think there would be a chance in hell that I’d share you?”
A chill rushed up my spine as his words came out like a growl. Butterflies took off in my stomach as everything below my waist clenched.
“I guess not,” I said, my wimpy response the only words I was able to get out as the rest of them lodged in my throat.
“Youguess?” He gripped the nape of my neck. “I’myours, and you’re mine. We can call it whatever you want, as long as that’s clear.”
“I’m okay with girlfriend. You’re a little too old to be a boyfriend, though,” I teased.
“I’m a year older than you, sweetheart.”
I yelped when he pinched my side.
“I think I can pull off boyfriend,” he whispered, picking up my hand and kissing the inside of my wrist, his eyes locking with mine. His lips were warm and soft, the extra stubble around his mouth scraping my skin as he peppered more kisses along my palm.
“I think you can too,” I said in a breathy whisper while he rained kisses over my face and came back to my lips. I grabbed the back of his head and slanted my mouth over his, letting the sheet drop.
He coasted his hand across my chest, squeezing one of my breasts as I fell back on the bed.
“I’m never going to get out of here,” he panted into the crook of my neck as he slipped his hand between my legs. “Fuck, you’re so wet.”
“We can be fast,” I said, fumbling with his belt. “In and out and on the road.” I made it to the button of his jeans and pulled down the zipper as he pushed them down his legs.
“You’re killing me,” he murmured against my lips and slid inside. I smiled into the kiss and bucked my hips off the bed, trying to meet him thrust for punishing thrust, rushing us and savoring us at the same time. I chased and dreaded my release, already missing him tonight.
I’d missed him for years, even when we were in the same room. And now, he was mine. An evil voice in my head still tauntedfor now, but I wouldn’t let it win. I dug my nails into his back, sinking my teeth into his shoulder while I spread my legs wider.
Lee was about to consume me, and I was ready to let him. But hadn’t he always?
Lee slipped a hand between us and swirled his thumb around my clit in just the right spot for me to fall over the edge, my orgasm quick and blinding as it hit. Lee went rigid, spilling inside me as he fisted the sheets.
“I need a minute before I pull up my pants and get in the car,” Lee said, his chest heaving against mine when he lifted his head. “In and out, huh?”
“More or less,” I said, lifting a shoulder. “Sorry if I made you late.” I wrapped my arms around him, both of us still chasing our breath. So many feelings barreled over me, it was hard to keep up.
I finally had the life I’d always wanted, not the one that kept me on the move so I couldn’t dwell on the crushing disappointment of not having it.
I had it now, but the restlessness hadn’t totally gone away. Maybe once I started believing that this was reality and not a fever dream, it would.
The process was slow, but I was getting there. The soreness between my legs was at least a validating sign that I was awake.
He ran his thumb over my cheek. “I still have time. So you’ll stay in my bed?”
“Yes, and we can tell Bennie I’m your girlfriend when you come back so I don’t have to set two alarms in the morning.”
“Say it again,” Lee rasped, running his thumb over my swollen lips.
“Girlfriend.”
“What a fantastic fucking word.” He pecked my lips. “I’m going to go. Don’t follow me, or I’ll really be late. Go back to sleep.”
