“I should hope that between Liam and me, we keep your pussy plenty occupied.”
She wanted to smack his arm, but refrained. “I’m serious. While you two specifically made it a great weekend, I’m still… thinking aboutit.About beingher.”
“Who?”
Eden brushed her hand against her chest. “Brim.”
Benson fell silent again.
“That was the most thrilling weekend of my life. It was power. For the first time, I held all the cards. Men wanted me,andhad to be respectful about it. Nobody would fucking judge me for going from one man to the next. Hell, I gotrewardedfor it. Men like Liam were a dime a dozen there in terms of that kink. I think there must be a lot of men who pay to go last!”
“Oh, there is. That’s why I like to go first. Makes me stand out.”
That got him the arm smack.
“I know it’s potentially dangerous, but I think that’s part of the thrill. Or, at least, a place like that lets me live out that fantasy in relative safety.” Eden didn’t know why she was so embarrassed.Because I’m supposed to be.Until La Mariposa, she had never even been honest with herself about it.Strangers. Paradise. All the sexual pleasure I can handle…
So rude of monogamy to exist right now.
“I’ll be honest with you, angel. I don’t want you to go there. Not as my girlfriend.”
“I get it. I know.”
“I don’t think Liam does, either. He would live, but… angel, there are very few men on this planet who aretrulyunfazed by their industry girlfriends doing what they do. Men like Liam put up a good front and maybe won’t even let you see how much it fucks them up a little, but it does. And I confidently say that he’s not an exception because I’ve been with that man long enough to share several girlfriends and to plan a wedding. He’d get disheartened knowing that he was out of town for work and some guy hit on me at the club when I was out with friends.”
“Did you guys sleep with other men together?”
Benson aged another ten years while answering another personal question. “Sometimes. Never on our own, though. That wouldn’t have been… allowed.”
“You mean it would have been cheating?”
“When you have a third, you have a standing agreement. You’re all sleeping together, or you’re both sharing someone else, and it’s just whatever. But if he went out of town and I brought some guy from Grindr home? All hell would break loose. Same if he blew some guy in the club while I was unaware. Monogamy is… dubious in a lot of gay relationships, but we were very open with each other about what we wanted, and that wasthe agreement. We had each other. We had a girlfriend. Other people were incidental to us agreeing to have fun together.”
“And, sometimes, you guys just had sex with random women in between girlfriends.”
“Yes, but always together. And never when wehada girlfriend, unless she was there.”
“I get what you’re saying, Ben. It’s a lot of food for thought.” Eden wrapped her whole arm around his. “Are you angry at me? For just… all of this?”
“Why would I be mad at you?”
“Because I’m your girlfriend.”
“I’m not happy. But I’m not mad. It’s not you, angel. It’s not even me. It’s just… things.”
He touched her chin, and she tilted her head back, indulging in his touch. “You’re wonderful, angel. You remind me of some of my own latent fantasies. Like having the girl that every other man wants, but she’s with me.”
She slightly smiled. “And you make love like a truck. It works out for both of us.”
“You’re not the first person to saytruckin that context.”
“You just like to love hard. Literally.”
“Nottoohard, I hope.”
“Only your dick, Ben.”
“Speaking of the literal fucker.” Benson gestured toward his lap. “I’ve been working on this ever since we got home. Haven’t quite made it all the way, yet. I don’t think he knows if it’s happening or not. Plus, kind of awful to have an erection while your girlfriend is talking about serious shit with you.”
