“Thank you for remembering that, but your opinion means a lot.” He’d dated more than I had and he had an Owner, so I was considering him an expert in the field for the moment.
And even if I was smart enough to question that decision, it made him smile so big it was worth it.
“You’re going to be such a good doll.” Nearly bouncing, Emerson did hisyou’re so cutesigh. “Just remember to ask questions, let him know what turns you on, and don’t be embarrassed if something you don’t understand turns you on.”
I really hoped it was as easy as he made it out to be, but dating was never as easy as people made it out to be.
“You think he’ll really either talk to me or talk to me and spank me if I annoy him?” I’d read enough of their posts and just generic internet stuff to know that spankings sounded scary but weren’t terrible, but I was more doubtful about the whole “he’d talk to me” part. “This would be the first time that’s happened and I’m not sure I believe it.”
Emerson shrugged but didn’t look worried. “Everything I’ve heard and seen says he’ll make a great Owner and he’s reallybossy, so worst-case scenario just let him be in charge. You tell him if something is outside your limits but let him handle everything else.”
It really couldn’t be that simple.
Emerson’s giggle said he knew what I was thinking. “He’s a Dom, silly. He’s not a regular human man. He’s like the souped-up version of being male. He will literally get hard every time you submit and it’ll get even better if you submit to something that’s difficult or makes you nervous.”
Oh.
Everything did that.
He quickly raised his hand, though. “Not outside your limits nervous. There is a difference.”
I thought I understood that part. “Like when Terry dated that Dom who tried to get him to do a threesome with a woman. Just because he’s kind of bi didn’t mean he was going to do that and the Dom knew it. You guys made sure Terry knew his limits were important.”
Emerson beamed at me. “You’re such a well-educated stalker. Good job.”
I’d never had anyone tell me that but it was nice.
“I’m…I’m just supposed to figure out my limits as we explore things. He wants me to explain how I’m feeling but he’ll make all the decisions.” Walking through the plan had Emerson nodding seriously at me, but the cars pulled up before he could give me any more instructions. “Oh. I thought we had more time.”
Just to get used to the idea…not to run.
“Remember, you liked his kisses and you wanted him to touch your cock. Don’t forget that part just because you’re nervous.” He really was helpful in weird ways. “He didn’t need space from you at the table and he wants to give you an orgasm.”
“That’s important. Yes.” I hadn’t annoyed him either. “He also finds my lack of experience erotic.”
Most men had just told me that was weird, but my Owner liked it enough to use the word erotic.
“Yep.” Emerson did a sexy shimmy and grinned wider. “He’s going to love being your first everything. It’s going to make him all kinds of possessive.”
Possessive…of me.
“That means he’ll probably want to keep me? Right?” I just couldn’t quite picture that as easily as Emerson could.
“Keep you and give you rules and watch over you so closely you won’t have any privacy at all.” His sigh said that was a good thing but my body couldn’t decide if that was sexy or scary or both. “Just remember everyone has different limits and it’s okay if it takes you a while to figure out yours.”
Both Doms were waiting patiently for us, and as I finally made myself look at Leonardo, he seemed perfectly content to let me talk to Emerson.
“I just need to be willing to explore things and then decide how I feel about them.” I could do that. “And…and Kenny’s stuff made it clear that limits change over time.”
“You’re so smart.” Emerson patted my head before giving my bottom a good swat. “Go play with your Owner and don’t let him forget you earned an orgasm.”
Leonardo was going to give me an orgasm.
Yes, that was something I could remember.
“Thank you for…for introducing me to my Owner.” I wasn’t sure if he was really going to be my Owner but it seemed like the best chance I had at a relationship and I wasn’t going to let being nervous fuck things up.
“He’s very controlling and you’re very needy.” Emerson made another drawn-out sigh as I stepped closer to Leonardo’s SUV. “This is going to be perfect and I would like to be the Best Doll at your collaring ceremony.”
