Well, until two minutes ago, neither had she.
“How did you even—?”
“I get to have secrets, too,” she whispered against his neck.
And then.
The full force of what she’d done grabbed her around the throat and made it impossible to catch a breath.
She’d had sex with Jack. Which, it should be noted, she did not regret. Not one bit.
Butshe’d done a backbend on him when she rode him cowgirl. This was definitely a questionable maneuver, and not a first-time sex position. What the hell-o had she been thinking?
Andshe’d had sex in the middle of the freaking day. What if her kids’ school called? What if there was a delivery to sign for?
The breaths that had come so easily before suddenly clogged her throat.
“April?” he asked, apparently sensing something was off.
“I can’t catch my breath,” she said, sitting up but deciding that wasn’t a good idea and so falling back against him.
She was heaving extremely heavy air through her lungs, her chest rising and falling against him. Her skin seemed too tight, and her pulse pounded in her ears.
“Hey.” He held her jaw with his hand so her eyes met his, his voice tender. “What’s going on?”
She pressed the heels of her hands against her eyelids. “Minor haven’t-done-this-in-a-while panic. Give me a second to get myself together.”
He pulled her closer for a cuddle. Even though they were naked and they’d just done that, the move felt comfortably platonic.
“Do you regret what just happened?” he asked, using his butterscotch tone that made her not able to form a coherent thought.
Which was good, since all her thoughts jumbled.
“I just did a backbend with youinside me.” She gripped his shoulders. “What if I’d hurt you?”
His eyebrows drew together. “You pulled offthatmaneuver and you’re worried you could’ve hurtme?”
“I could’ve slipped.” That wasn’t totally out of the realm of possibility.
His expression turned to utter seriousness. “Would you have gotten hurt?”
“Of course not.” She shook her head. This wasn’t about her getting hurt. She could have maimed him during sex.
“Then it would’ve been worth the trip to the emergency room,” he said, as though this whole thing was a joke.
She frowned.
“Trust me. You ever want to dothatagain, I will take the risk.”
Oh, well…that was nice, then. Maybe it was okay after all.
“It’s beensolong since I’ve had sex,” April said. “And now I’m mucking it all up.”
“There is literally no way you could muck anything up afterthat.” He nuzzled her neck. “Please know that was the hottest thing I’ve ever experienced in my life.”
Now he was just messing with her.
“April.” He reached for her hands, pulled them to his chest. Right over his heart.
