“Good, because that’s never going to change.”
“Wouldn’t want it to,” Ward said, a slow smile making his eyes light up. He was so perfect like this. Not that he wasn’t always perfect, but I’d never seen him quite like this before. “I wouldn’t want you to be any different.”
He let me kiss him again, shifting his weight as the click of the lube opening rang out between gasps and we both giggled at the sound like horny teenagers sneaking our way through our first time.
It felt like that. Maybe it shouldn’t have, maybe too much time had passed, maybe there’d been too many other people between us.
But right now, none of it mattered. It was just me and Ward in this room, in this bed, like it was meant to be.
“How do you wanna do this?”
What kind of question was that? I wanted to do it every possible way and then make up a few impossible ones for good measure.
“I… I don’t care,” I said. “As long as it’s with you.”
“Well,” Ward murmured, running his free hand down my chest and making me squirm under him. “How about.” He paused to kiss me, first on the mouth, then the chin, then the throat. “We take it real slow.” More kisses, along my collarbones and down my chest, the scrape of teeth, the flick of his tongue at one nipple while his thumb teased the other one until they both peaked. “And you can speed me up if the pacing slips. Okay?”
“Okay.”
I sounded as breathless as I felt, and all I could do was watch in awe as Ward worked his way down further, kissing what felt like every freckle on my body until he was hovering above my oversensitive cock, straining up against my stomach with sticky precome beading at the tip.
I had to bite down on my fist to stop myself from screaming as his tongue darted out to lick it up.
“Ryder,” he said, looking up at me with dark, intent eyes that made something inside me want to beg. “You can be as loud as you want. You’re safe with me. And,” he added, hot breath ghosting over me. “I’d kinda like to hear you.”
Maybe I was supposed to respond to that, but if Ward had wanted me to do anything other than moan helplessly, he shouldn’t have licked a stripe up my cock. Once he was done he pressed a kiss to my stomach, laughing against my skin, and if any last tiny part of me had been nervous at all, it evaporated in that moment.
I watched him pour probably more lube than necessary onto his fingers and rub them to warm it up, because of course he knew to do that. Of course he’d do it like it was second nature.
“Full disclosure, been a while since I’ve done this,” he said.
He might have been expecting a response to that, too, but all I could do as he trailed slick fingers up the inside of my thigh was force myself to breathe. Ward laughed again, a vibrating chuckle that made my stomach do somersaults.
“Pace still good?” he asked, pressing a kiss to my raised knee. I didn’t even remember raising it, my body moving without conscious thought. That was how much I wanted him.
“Perfect,” I croaked, voice breaking as Ward pushed his fingers back further. My teeth dug into my lip as he circled, teasing again.
Like he’d said, it wouldn’t feel right if he didn’t tease.
“You look so good like this,” Ward murmured, free hand moving up and down my thigh in long, soothing strokes. He was every bit as gentle as I’d imagined he would be.
“You look pretty good like—ah—that,” I gasped, arching my back as he slipped the tip of his finger inside me, eyes glittering with silent laughter as he bit his lip.
Yeah. Exactly like I’d imagined he would be.
Ward kissed and nuzzled and sucked at my raised thigh as he worked the rest of his finger into me, keeping me occupied with the occasional scrape of teeth and the roaming of his other hand. He was focused on my freckles again, drawing patterns over the ones by my hip.
“What’re you drawing?” I asked, making a half-hearted attempt to lift my head up and watch but then giving up on it.
“A dick.”
I snorted, arching my back again to encourage him into speeding up.
“You’re ridiculous.”
“I know,” Ward said. “But you wouldn’t have me any other way.”
I shook my head. No. No, I wouldn’t have had Ward any other way.
