At first he was so gentle with me that I was afraid I might fall asleep, but then he crooked his fingers like he had a map of my insides and left me seeing stars.
He laughed, too. He laughed like he was having the time of his life, and I got it, because so was I. I’d always thought sex was supposed to feel different than it had for me, and now I knew I was right.
With Ward, I felt like we were fumbling our way toward mutual happiness, an extension of the way we’d played as kids. The way I’d always wanted things to be between us.
“You can’t smile like that and not tell me what you’re thinking about,” Ward said, bringing me back to reality with another deliberate push inside me.
“I’m thinking about you,” I said. “About how this feels like when we were kids.”
“I donotremember doing this as kids.”
“You know what I mean. It feels… I dunno.”
“Natural?” Ward tried.
“Yeah,” I agreed. “Natural. Like it’s meant to be you.”
I shoved my fingers deep into his hair as he bent down to kiss me, holding him in place while his fingers worked. He was slow and steady, gentle as ever but occasionally twisting and curving to remind me of what we were doing, jolts of pleasure making me gasp into his mouth.
This was good, but I wanted more.Neededmore.
“Please,” I begged against his lips, grinding down onto his fingers, clenching around him. “Want you.”
“You’ve got me,” Ward rumbled, voice low enough to vibrate in my gut. “You’ve got all of me.”
I bit my lip as he pulled his fingers out, panting for breath and desperate for more. It’d never been like this. I’d wanted sex before, but it’d never mattered so much that it was with one specific person.
But then, it’d never been Ward.
My breath hitched as he shifted positions, lifting me up one handed to shove a pillow under my hips.
Dear god that was hot.
Watching him roll the condom he’d grabbed earlier down the length of his cock made my mouth go dry. How did he just walk through life being so effortlessly hot?
“Sure about this?” Ward asked.
“I’ve never been more sure about anything in my entire life.”
Ward held my gaze while he lined himself up, everything I was feeling right now reflected in his eyes. All the excitement and joy of when we were younger, getting up to all kinds of things we probably shouldn’t have been.
Except I was pretty sure we were supposed to be doing this. Nothing in my life had ever felt so right.
One moment Ward was lined up against me, hot and hard, and the next my eyes were rolling back in my head as he pushed forward, thick and perfect and everything I would have made him if I’d had the chance to personally decide the exact shape and size of his cock.
That made all the sense in the world to me. I always felt like we’d been made just for each other.
“Okay?” Ward asked, fingers curled around my hip, holding me still as he took his time, giving me a chance to breathe.
“So okay,” I panted. “So, so okay.”
“You look good like this, too,” Ward said, glancing down at where our bodies werefinallyjoined.
I felt like I’d been waiting my whole life for this moment.
“You look like every teenage fantasy I ever had,” I confessed, laughing as I said it. It was true, though. I’d always imagined us like this. “But youfeellike every adult fantasy I’ve ever had.”
“Yeah?” Ward asked.
