Itwasmy first time, in a way, and I was suddenly overwhelmed by the idea that I got to do it with Felix.
“Could do this for hours,” I murmured against his lips, brushing our noses together.Nothingcould’ve wiped the smile off my face right now. The building could have collapsed around our ears and I wouldn’t even have noticed.
Felix was the only thing in my world, like he had been when we were little, and it felt sogood.
“Can if you want,” Felix said, one hand trailing down to the waistband of my jeans, slowly tugging the tail of my shirt out. “Thought you might be interested in more, though.”
I was.Hell yesI was.
“What did you have in mind?” I asked, darting in for another soft kiss, alongway from done with Felix’s lips.
I’d wanted to kiss him since I first saw him again. Hell, I’d wanted to kiss him since Ilastsaw him, before we moved on to separate lives.
That’d never really gone away.
Carter was going to laugh himself sick. Which was fine—as long as I got this now, anyone who wanted to could laugh at me tomorrow.
“Are you asking what I’m thinking?” Felix raised an eyebrow, popping another one of my shirt buttons open. He’d been working on them for a while, one at a time, as if he was hoping I wouldn’t notice until I was naked.
Our coats were lying in a heap just inside the door, so Ihadnoticed that we were getting progressively more undressed.
I wasn’t about to call a halt to it.
“Because I’m thinking I keep supplies in the nightstand,” Felix continued.
I pulled back an inch or two to look into his eyes, unsure where to go from here.
“No pressure,” Felix said, squeezing my waist one-handed. “I don’t want you to do anything you don’t want. But I think—”
“I want,” I interrupted, the words escaping me before I’d even come to a conscious decision.
But Ididwant, and this was maybe my one chance to satisfy that curiosity I’d been nursing for… well, for alongtime.
There was no one I wanted this more with.
Felix beamed at me, eyes sparkling again. “Good,” he purred, dragging the rest of my shirt out of my waistband and popping the rest of the buttons, opening each cuff in turn while I watched, mesmerized, whole body thrumming with the thought of what I’d just agreed to—what I’d justadmitted.
I wanted Felix. I wanted his skin under my fingers, under my lips, under my tongue. I wanted to touch everywhere I could and hear him pant and moan and gasp in response, squirm under me and laugh and beg for more.
His shirt came off faster than mine did, revealing broad stretches of pale skin, delicate under my fingertips, nipples peaking as I brushed my thumb over one, then the other, a delicious shiver running through him.
“Kieran,” he breathed, and it said so much—that he wanted me, too, that maybe he’d wanted me a long time, that it mattered to him thatIwas here, and not just any warm body.
“Show me everything,” I murmured, kissing his lips and then biting at them, soft nips to distract him as I fumbled my way through undoing another man’s belt for the first time, fingers clumsy and awkward.
Felix chuckled as I kissed his throat, tasting salt and soap there, sharp and bright andhim. I’d never tasted his skin before, how had Inotdone that?
In some ways, Felix was the person I knew best in the world. In others, I didn’t know the first thing about him.
Time to find out.
Felix dragged me to the bed, stronger than he looked, laughing the whole time as he shoved me back onto the mattress and we both kicked shoes and pants off, pausing for heated kisses as we ended up tangled in each other.
We rolled over, still laughing, struggling for position like we had when we were little, and all the worry, all the nervousness I’d been carrying evaporated.
This was just Felix, we were just playing, and I didn’t have anything to be scared of.
“You look like you’re having fun,” Felix said, grinning up at me, his face flushed and his eyes so bright.
