“No, that’s definitely not it.” All their eyes swing over to me. “Not that I’m giving any details.”
“I knew it! You guys were way too cozy this morning to not have fucked already.” Devon grins. “Plus, you took way too long to come in the house after I left you on the deck.”
“Yeah, that’s not up for discussion anymore.” It’s best to just warn them all now. What I do in bed with Alex is none of their business. I will not talk about it. “Let’s just say that the assholes didn’t cheat because she’s a terrible lay and leave it at that.”
“Well shit then, it’s a mystery. But you’ve got your work cut out for you. It’s hard to come back from being cheated on once. If it happened to me more than once, I’m not sure I’d ever trust anyone else again. Not for more than a night, anyway.” I can agree with Travis on this point. Alex must be amazingly strong to have tried again this many times and kept going back. I plan to make sure she never has to do it again, though.
“Ok, that’s enough of this talk. I want to finish up and get back into the studio for a bit. I’m taking the evening to be with Alex, though. You guys can stay in the studio or go somewhere else, as long as you don’t bother us.”
The guys all promise to give me time with Alex, and then we go back to our food. We finish quickly, pay and go on our way. We drive straight back to the house and go into the studio. I text Alex to see if she even wants to go out tonight, and then the guys and I get to work.
Chapter 44
Alex - Good Advice
Connor- I’d like to take you out to dinner tonight if you’re interested? The guys and I will be done in the studio by 7 and then we can go if that works for you.
Me- That sounds good. I’ll see you then.
I’m actually surprised that Connor wants to take me out. I was a little worried that he would be done with me completely after the amazing sex we had. Looks like my swearing off of men hasn’t lasted very long. I do sort of wish we’d talked a little before we jumped into bed (or onto the table, heh) but it just felt so right being with him that my brain wasn’t working all that well. Then once he started kissing me, my brain took a complete vacation.
I’ve got a few hours before I need to think about getting ready, so I call Becca to kill some time. She answers after a couple of rings.
“Hey, girl. What’s up? How was it after we all left last night?”
“It was… interesting.” I say, drawing out the last word.
“Oh, how interesting are we talking here? Kissing on the couch, interesting? Or having your world rocked by the sexy rock star, interesting?”
Leave it to Becca to get right to the nitty gritty.
“Um, more of the second one.” I can feel my face turning red as I say it.
“You little slut! Good for you!” Becca is so loud that I have to pull the phone away from my ear. “So… what are you doing talking to me? You should be banging that dude all over his huge house right now.”
I can’t help but laugh at her. Becca is very sex positive, so I know when she calls me a slut she doesn’t mean it in a bad way, but it always takes me by surprise when she says it.
“The guys are all down in the studio right now, but he is taking me out tonight when they’re done working.”
“Oooh, a proper date.”
“I don’t know about that. Maybe?” I say. “Do guys like him even date?”
“Well, he asked you out on a date, so I’d say that’s a big hint right there.”
“Going on dates is different from dating, Becca. Of course he goes on dates. I mean, is a guy like him capable of being in a relationship. I’m not interested in being cheated on. Again.”
She thinks for a few minutes. The silence is more than I can bear. “C’mon Becca, you’re killing me here.”
“Sorry, sorry. I think what you’re asking is if someone in his position, a musician in a successful band, can be faithful to one person? And I think that, yes, it is possible. But I don’t know Connor well enough to say that he, specifically, is capable of that. That is something you will need to judge for yourself as you get to know him better. That’s what going on dates is for.”
I sigh. I know she’s right. But I’m so tired of getting to know guys and then trusting them, only to have them betray me, anyway. And it’s more complicated with Connor, because I work for him and live on his property. I’ve only been here for a couple of days, I don’t want to have to leave already.
“I know that. It just seems a little different in this case. Connor and I have a history. You remember when I first moved here, how wrecked I was about not being able to contact him? Even while grieving my parents’ death, I was still heartbroken about Connor. Not to mention the fact that I’ll be living here for the next six months. I’m just not sure if this is complicating things unnecessarily.”
“Let’s think of it this way. How would you feel if you didn’t at least try? Especially now that you know he didn’t actually change his number to avoid contact with you. You have a chance that most people don’t get. I think you should take it and see where it goes.”
I think about that for a second. Could I just turn away from this without giving it a chance? We’ve slept together already, what more could it hurt if we get to know each other again. He seemed sincere when we were talking last night. Becca’s probably right. I need to see where this leads.
