“Of course, love. Anything for you.” Theo ran his fingers through my hair, and I wanted to purr. Theo might not be as demonstrative as the other guys, but he was thoughtful and paid attention to the little things.
“Can I see it?” I asked hesitantly.
Theo handed it to me, and I reached out to touch it. Sex toys were strictly forbidden for omegas, and I’d never held one before. I was told from an early age that alphas wanted pure omegas and that sex toys were a fast route to becoming used goods.
“It’s really big,” I said finally, wrapping my fingers around it. I couldn’t imagine it actually fitting inside me. I knew, in theory, that omegas were built to take large penises and knots, but this seemed excessive.
“I wasn’t sure what size to get. There were a lot of options,” Theo mumbled.
I looked over at him and said in what I hoped was a flirty voice, “Did you get it to match your size?”
Theo blushed, but then his face transformed into the cutest smirk I had ever seen. “No, love, this is a sizesmall.”
Wait, was he serious? He was bigger than this? My eyes bored into his crotch as if I would develop x-ray vision and magically see through his pants. He cleared his throat, and I jolted.
“Do you need to see a comparison?”
Now he was the one flirting with me. My face grew hot. My omega was screaming at me to take him up on the offer, to ask him to pull his cock out of his pants and let me run my hands over it to see its size and shape. But what I actually said was, “I’ll take your word for it.”
I put the dildo down on the bed and leaned on his shoulder. I felt more lucid now, but I guessed the cramping would return with a vengeance. Everything inside me ached with need and I felt so empty. The thought of putting it inside me was becoming more appealing. And now I was thinking about what Theo was packing and puttingthatinside me.
He picked up my hand and started playing with it, tracing his fingers over mine. As the shock of Theo’s present wore off, tendrils of concern snaked through my chest. The guys didn’t have any experience with omegas, so maybe they didn’t understand what would happen if I used a sex toy. I fidgeted with the corner of one of the blankets and tried to gather my thoughts enough to verbalize my concern.
“Theo, won’t this break the inner barrier?”
Theo looked at me with confusion. “What are you talking about?”
“You know, the inner barrier,” lowering my voice. “Would this prevent us from bonding? An alpha needs to break it the first time.”
Theo looked bewildered. “Angel, I’m not sure what you’re talking about. Can you explain a bit more?”
My hands felt sweaty. “Omegas have an inner barrier inside us when we’re virgins. When we have sex for the first time, the alpha breaks the barrier. If the barrier is already broken, your bond won’t be as strong when you do have sex with your chosen alphas. If I use the dildo, it will break my barrier, and then if we all decide to bond, it will never be as strong.”
Theo squeezed my hand. “Who told you that?” he asked carefully.
“It was drilled into me by my parents since puberty, and then they taught us all about it in our anatomy class at the DA. Why?” I asked, apprehension creeping into my stomach.
Theo started to say something when Ben burst into the bedroom. “Why was I not invited to the party?” He threw himself onto the bed without a care, then made a face.
“What’s this?” he asked, pulling the dildo out from underneath him with a huge grin.
I groaned and flipped over onto my stomach, burying my face in the blankets. A meteor was more than welcome to hit me any moment now and take me out.
“It’s nothing,” Theo said. Ben didn’t answer, and I could imagine Theo gesturing furiously to get across what was happening. I tried burying myself further into the bed so I could shut the world out.
A tender hand stroked down my spine and a warm, crisp apple scent surrounded me.
“Didn’t mean to make you embarrassed, precious,” Ben murmured as he lay beside me.
The bed shifted as Theo lay down on my other side, sandwiching me between them.
“Is this okay?” he asked, brushing my hair away from my face.
I nodded and opened my eyes to meet his gaze. My face still felt hot.
“We don’t have to continue our conversation, love,” Theo said. His eyes were filled with such tenderness, and it hit me again how caring these alphas were. I could trust them to tell me the truth.
“Was what I said not true?” I whispered, almost afraid to hear the answer.
