I was thankful for the foresight not to open that text while walking into the school. I pulled my cardigan a little tighter over my chest as I read the message again. Closing my eyes, I exhaled and let the shiver work its way through my body.
Jazmyn Payne:Good morning! I’m glad you made it home safely. Thank you for coming to see me. I enjoyed you very much. And if it was that hard for you to leave, you should’ve stayed. Messages like this are the reason why I wanted to sit on it last night.
I reread his message again, and when I was about to put my phone away, he replied.
Lamar Anderson:Good morning. I just wanted you to know that I didn’t make that decision lightly and as soon as I got in the car, I regretted it. I stand by leaving because you deserve so much more than a quick fuck. I didn’t have much time, so I wanted to focus on you and take care of you. I wasn’t going to disrespect you by showing up late and not having much time and still trying to have sex with you. But trust, I’ve been thinking about everything I wanted to do to you since I left.
Jazmyn Payne:I wouldn’t have felt disrespected because I wanted you so bad I couldn’t rest. Dick deprivation had me tossing and turning all night. I would’ve been fine with a quickie. I just needed you.
Lamar Anderson:I needed you too. I needed you so bad that when I got home, I put my fingers under my nose because your scent was on them, and I beat my meat, imagining you riding my face.
Squeezing my eyes and my thighs together, I let out a trembling breath. The mere thought of him masturbating did it for me, but to know exactly what he’d been fantasizing about and imagining how he’d looked while doing it was overloading my system. I had only two minutes before walking into that building, and I needed to get it together.
Jazmyn Payne:I can’t continue this conversation. I need to go shape the minds of the youth. Are you at The Lab yet?
Lamar Anderson:Yeah, I’m just finishing my workout. I’m about to get dressed for the meeting. And then I’ll have practice.
Jazmyn Payne:Today is your first official day at practice as a full-blown active roster team member. I’m so happy for you! Kill it today! You got this!
I made sure my phone was on silent, and I dropped it in my workbag. Closing my eyes, I took a second to clear my mind.
I don’t know what I’m going to do about him, but right now my mind needs to be on work. I will—
The sharp rap at my window scared me.
“Ah!” I let out a short shriek seeing Alexa’s face was damn near mashed against the glass.
“Oh my God!” I complained as I opened the car door with my stuff in my hands. “Why would you do that?”
“I wanted to make sure you weren’t dead!” She put her hands on her hips. “Your eyes were closed. Your head was back. It looked like something was going on!”
“I was thinking!” Laughing, I hit the button to lock my car. “Why was your face against the window like that?”
“I was trying to see if you were breathing!”
Snickering, I shook my head as we headed into the school. “Alexa!”
“You’re always here early. I’m usually the one walking in with the bell. So, when I looked over and saw your body in the car—”
“Not my body!” I interrupted, reacting to her dramatics.
The workday was busy, so I didn’t even have a chance to overthink everything I was feeling. But as soon as I drove off the school grounds, I did just that. And my aunt’s question rolled around in my head.
What if he’s in love with me, too?
The thought twisted my gut.
I tried to distract myself with work. So, when Nina called around six o’clock that evening, I welcomed an entertaining distraction. I’d barely said hello when she interrupted me.
“Jazz!” Nina exclaimed.
My eyes widened. “What’s wrong?”
“What have you been doing?”
I walked from the kitchen to the living room with my water bottle. “After I got home, I started grading these assignments, and you know what? I’m one assignment away from just not assigning homework anymore, and school just started.”
She laughed. “I don’t know how you do it.”
