Chapter Seven
Iwanted to kiss him. I’ve been staring at his lips all night wondering if they felt soft, plush, or firm. I want to feel his five-o’clock shadow rubbing against my skin. Gods, I want him so bad, more than I’ve ever wanted anyone.
Lucas stopped at that thought as he realized the severity of the situation. When he met Rebecca, he knew that he wanted her, but he was not ready for a commitment right away. He needed to get a few things out of his system before he could commit himself to her. Once he knew for sure that Rebecca was the woman he wanted to marry, he devoted himself to her. After she died, he’d closed himself off from even feeling or seeing anyone else. Sure, some women flirted with him, but he brushed it to the side.
If men flirted with him, he didn’t encourage their advances. When Rebecca died, he was ready to live without ever feeling any kind of intimacy for the rest of his life. Lucas was baffled by his sudden attraction and need for Tucker. Their little flirtatious banter from earlier came back to him, and it felt so natural. Lucas tried to remember if he’d flirted with any other guy the way he did with Tucker and nothing came to him.
Maybe I’ve been bisexual all the time, but no other man ever sparked my interest until now.
He still found women attractive, but when he looked at Tucker, it was as if he saw the sexiest thing on two legs. Again, the image of his dick outline came back to him, and his skin prickled, and his cock jerked with interest.
Or maybe I’m just attracted to Tucker.
“Are you okay?” He looked up when he heard Tucker’s voice. He looked around as if forgetting where he was. “You stopped walking—”
“Ah, yeah, I’m fine.” Clearing his throat, he gasped when Tucker placed both hands on his cheeks, lifting his face peering at him. The scent of his cologne mixed with the beach air was driving Lucas crazy. He wanted to lean in and draw in more of the man’s scent. Why do I find everything about him so sexy?
“I think we should call it a night.” Tucker’s thumbs rubbing his cheeks was distracting him. He licked his lips just as one of his fingers brushed against his lips. He held back the moan that threatened to come out, tasting salt like the sea air from the theme park, and something he couldn’t put into words. “Your pupils are dilated,” Tucker whispered stepping closer to him.
They stared at each other, everything else forgotten. It was as if they were the only two people in the world at that moment. Lucas didn’t care about the consequences anymore. He was tired of questioning what was happening between them, and he prayed to all the gods in heaven that Tucker didn’t punch him in the face for what he was about to do.
Taking a chance, Lucas wrapped his arms around Tucker and gently connected their lips together before the other man could figure out what was happening. Tucker was still against him for a few seconds before he gasped and opened his mouth letting Lucas in. Tucker moaned as he wrapped his arms around Lucas’ waist pulling them closer. There was no fighting for dominance, Lucas willing gave over control letting Tucker do as he wanted.
It felt natural to him when Tucker’s tongue swept into his mouth, when his teeth lightly grazed and nibbled on his lips or when his hand slid down towards his ass and squeezed it gently. Lucas felt as if he was swimming in not only pleasure but need; need to feel more. They kissed for a little while longer before separating. Lucas kept his eyes closed afraid to open them because it might be a dream and not reality. He was surprised when Tucker’s lips pressed against his again.
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They werequiet on the way home, and Tucker wanted to know what Lucas was thinking. His lips still burned and tingled from their unexpected but pleasurable kiss. He couldn’t get over how good Lucas felt in his arms and against him. It was as if he should have been there all along. He hated that he had to stop them when all he wanted to do was lay Lucas down in the sand and have his way with him.
He wanted to hear the hitch in his breath when he found a spot on his beautiful body that made him shudder with need. But Tucker knew what happened wouldn’t happen again even if he initiated the second kiss. Lucas might not even remember what he’d done, and Tucker could chalk it up to a drunken mistake, one he would never forget.
He pulled into Lucas’ driveway and turned off the car; he was waiting for Lucas to get out and go inside the house but he didn’t even move. They sat in silence before Lucas spoke.
“I—I want you to fuck me.”
Tucker gasped, and his head started to spin.Did Lucas know what he was saying? What was he asking?
“I can’t—”
“Don’t turn me away, Tucker.” Lucas turned to look at him. “I know you think I’m drunk or I have no idea what I’m doing. But I do.”
Tucker stared at him and wondered if he was an idiot for thinking no, even though his body was screaming yes. Before he could say anything, Lucas unbuckled his seatbelt and leaned closer to him, his hand touching Tucker’s leg and slowly working his way up to his cock that was showing how much his hesitation was at war with his body. Tucker groaned when a finger traced the outline of his hard cock and Lucas brushed his lips against his. Tucker's breathing sped up a bit when the head was pinched.
“I don’t know what I’m doing but I know that I want you, Tuck. I want you so bad it’s driving me crazy.”
Lucas’ tongue peeked out, and the tip brushed against Tucker’s upper lip. He closed his eyes and let his head fall back against the headrest.
“Don’t turn me away tonight, baby, I need you. Fuck, I need you to make me feel again. To make me remember what it’s like to have a warm body next to me.”
The hand on his cock started to rub harder, and he knew he was leaking precum. Tucker bit hard on his bottom lip when hot breath covered his jean-clad hard cock and was sucked on. Instantly, his hips jerked and his hand went to the back of Lucas’ head. The sucking became harder, and his hips moved more when his fingers dug deeper into Lucas’ skin. When he was sure he was going to cum, everything stopped, and it was as if he was in a dream. He opened his eyes, he didn’t know he’d closed, and looked at the man that was turning his world upside down.
“Come inside,” Lucas told him, opened the car door and got out. He closed the door and walked up to his house as if nothing had happened and walked inside, leaving the door open. He was giving Tucker a choice.
Tucker sat in the car trying to catch his breath. “I can’t do this. I shouldn’t do it.”
He was trying to tell himself this was a bad idea. All thoughts of leaving vanished when he looked up at the window leading to Lucas’ bedroom to see the man standing there naked, showing his toned chest, looking down at him. Lucas was giving him something he wanted, and he would be a fool to turn it down. He’d have to deal with the consequences later. Tucker got out of his car and hit the key fob setting his alarm before tucking his keys in his pocket and walked into the house. He locked the doors setting the alarm.
He stood with his back to the door for a few minutes then took off his jacket and threw it on the back of the couch. He slowly made his way up the stairs, passing the guest bedroom where he’d slept all week. He stopped at the door leading to Lucas’ bedroom and stood there for a few minutes. The door was slightly cracked. Tucker pushed it open the rest of the way and gasped at the sight that greeted him.
